Middle Child Syndrom and my theory
by, 02-Aug-2011 at 21:05 (499 Views)
I think I read somewhere that a LOT of AB/TB/DL's are middle children.
I think for me, that explains a little of my dl self.
My parents fought, and I know that is cliche. Everyone's parents fight. A marriage is not healthy if the parents are not fighting, but they did something that they probably shouldn't have. They put me in the middle. Whether by complaining to me about the other or having me act as mediator to them both I always felt like a mini-counselor to my parents. Even as a small child I would always be thinking how to improve their marriage, how to help them.
Add to that trying to shine in the shadow of an older brother, be a good example to the younger brother, and try to differentiate yourself from other people and you have a stressful childhood of never being able to simply relax and be a kid. (Being a military brat didn't help as we moved every 3-5 years)
The desire to leave the stress, to calm down, to think about a simpler time brings out the diapers for me. That seems like the only time when I was carefree and happy. Now I am very happy, somewhat successful, and still in diapers. I think a lot of that calm and self confidence comes from the destressor in my pants. For this reason I never understood why this was called a fetish. There are a lot of people like me who are not sexually stimulated by diapers. They merely calm me down, center me, and allow me to be the best person I can be.
Still trying, of course.