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This is partly adapted from my first introduction - but I thought I might as well share a proper "history of me" post!

As far back as age 10/11, I remember having a teddy bear that I'd dressed in a nappy (my mum was a childminder so had some supplies), and then I tried to fit it on me as well, and it felt good. At this point, I also had my first real sexual awakening - I don't remember if the nappies were involved though...

I don't think I thought about it again for a few years, but when I was 14/15, I had a dream that I was staying over at a friend's house, and he got nappies for us to wear. I remember waking up, and thinking that I'd like that in real life. Ever since then, I've had the urges to wear. I made the mistake of telling my Mother, who then questioned whether I was still having urges for a few weeks after... cue embarrassed "nope all good" excuses.

Once I had access to the Internet, I'd spend nights on my brother's PC (damn AOL dialup), looking to see if there was other people like me, and finding very little. I think I might have found DPF at one point, and that was about it. I went through up to GCSEs without really knowing much, just lurking on sites reading what were probably simple fap stories.

Then, once A-Levels began, and I had Internet access on my own computer, I'd search more about it all, and found that adult nappies existed, and that I might be DL. Again, a lot of this time was just surfing the Internet, watching videos of people being changed, and occasionally making a makeshift nappy out of a towel to wear to bed.

When I was 17, I found that Attends were giving samples out, and I risked getting one posted to my home. After trying it on, I was in heaven, and wore it to bed. Unfortunately, I'd had a lot to drink before bed, so woke in the middle of the night bursting for a wee, so took the nappy off and used it. I then felt so ashamed, that I went months trying not to think about it.

I then got another sample sent when feelings came back, but they were the new Attends - almost belted, and didn't feel like proper nappies. I again felt a load of shame, and within the day they arrived, had chucked them in the bin. Also, my mother had been asking about the package - I almost told her, but she luckily volunteered an "is it condoms" get out free clause!

I then started uni, and for the first year, didn't even think about nappies. Due to stress and a new situation I guess... Once I settled down, the urges came back in my second year and I found ADISC. Once I joined I learnt all the secrets of the trade, and brands to search for and buy... and haven't looked back!

As for why I am what I am - I have no solid evidence... I know when I was in nursery school a member of staff accused me of having an accident - and I was so ashamed they'd even suggest it; I was a "big boy" who used the toilet! I also know I was under a lot of pressure to be a high achiever and not let my parents down - they always claim I was born a mature old man! So I expect there is a lost childhood there... Oh and my Mother was a childminder for a lot of my childhood, so I was always around babies/toddlers wearing nappies!
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  1. LunaCat's Avatar


    Quote Originally Posted by eeyore
    I know when I was in nursery school a member of staff accused me of having an accident - and I was so ashamed they'd even suggest it; I was a "big boy" who used the toilet! I also know I was under a lot of pressure to be a high achiever and not let my parents down - they always claim I was born a mature old man!
    Some similarities with myself

    I remember one of the threats in my nursery school was being put in the nursery with the "babies".

    Everyone always called me a "little old man".

    I never felt like I missed my childhood, but perhaps there's a subconscious thing going on.
  2. DanDanSuperman's Avatar
    Weird.

    I'd never thought about it either, but I can relate to that last bit, too.

    My Mum was a nanny right till I was 6, then a foster carer till I was 14...
    I was always said to be wise beyond my years, and had big things expected of me as a high achiever through first and secondary school...

    I didn't even know these things could contribute... But there you go.

    Thanks eeyore

    Dan x
  3. eeyore's Avatar
    Hmm, maybe there's more to this "old before your age" malarky than I first thought!
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