by, 26-Oct-2010 at 05:35 (275 Views)
The feelings aren't completely sexual. And I wish I could "relieve" myself in such a way... but I can't. its too painful that way (yes physically) But its the emotional part thats gets me the most. And it doesn't help when he plays hard to get. He just brings out the happy me and I'm to stupid and shy to do something about it.
I've always had emotional issues, but for some reason I can't turn this one into hate like I do with the rest of them.
For whoever reads this... Please be understanding and respectful. This is something important to me and I needed to get this out there to people not directly involved so I may possibly get an un-biased opinion. :)