Faking "medical reasons"
by, 01-Aug-2010 at 01:12 (508 Views)
So one thing I've always held in the back of my mind if someone "random" catches me is to plead "medical reasons". Like if I travel in an airport and I'm searched. I've been told by many that using the phrase "medical reasons" is like a green card - strangers feel the need to stop prying, officials don't want to violate any privacy laws. The problem is... I don't have what I feel is a "medical reason", so am I lying? Even so, what amount of disrespect am I showing those who really *do* have medical reasons?
My therapist once told me that if I wanted to think of it as a medical reason, it sort of is. I panic and stress a lot, and diapers help me relax and release all that. In a way, they're my alternative to taking a drug to do the same thing. This feels like a cop-out to me though, something manufactured to make myself feel better and to not have to deal with the truth: I wear diapers out of no real need, but out of want and desire.
As I said before, the other half of my issue is the guilt I feel for using the excuse. There are folks who have no choice, they actually have a medical reason to wear a diaper. Am I being disrespectful to those folks? Am I making a joke or mockery out of a serious and real situation that they must endure every day? What kind of person am I for that?
The other catch for using this phrase is... what if family or friends find out? How do you explain "medical reasons" with people who likely know everything about you? Then you're just digging yourself a deeper hole, lie after lie burying you further down. Now you're living the lie you created. I don't make a habit of lying because I've been there... and I won't ever go there again.