Duty to serve.
by, 22-Jul-2010 at 20:30 (497 Views)
Duty to serveÖ
So next week I am going to go meet with a Navy recruiter to see about starting a new chapter in my life. This is something that I have been struggling with since the start of the year. First it was which branch to join. Then it was the fact that I am gay and would have to go back into the closet for a number of years. And thirdly, telling my family the news.
Well the good part is my family is all for it and thinks it would be a great choice and adventure for me to undertake. So after trying to work up the nerves for a number of weeks, I look back at it and think. What was there really to worry about? In the end nothing I suppose.
The Hardest thing I needed to figure out was which branch I was most interested in? Army, Marines, Air Force, Navy or Coast Guard. Well after some soul searching, and some research online I decided on the Navy. One reason being they offer a job that I am highly interested in. And could lead to a great career down the road. And second, well there really wasnít a second reason. Now I am not going to say what job Iím interested in and I still need to take the ASVAB. But if I test into it I am looking at a year wait just to go to basic training. This would give me time to get into better shape. Not that Iím out of shape at the moment. But the more practice/working out the better. Right?
The most worry some part of this though is as you guessed it. The fact that I am gay. Since I was 19 I have been living the fee life as you could call it. I didnít have to hide behind a title saying I was straight. And I have to admit. That felt quite good to me. As I wasnít keeping a secret from anybody. I am able to be myself daily and not worry about what others think. However, with the militaryís policy dealing with gays in the military. I now have to once again hide who I am. Because, if they find out I lied to them I could be looking at a court marshal and jail time. But with their donít ask donít tell policy it shouldnít be hard for me to hide who I am. And with any luck a few years down the road they will overturn that policy and I will once again be able to come out.
Some may ask, why I want to join. Now that is an honest to god hard question to answer. But for some reason mentally I feel compelled to do so. Whatís even stranger is I donít come from a military family. So this will be uncharted waters for us all. But if I get talking to my recruiter and things seem to click it could be the start of a great career/adventure.