Starting to enjoy life again.
by, 05-Jul-2010 at 16:50 (258 Views)
I've made my amends with most of the people that I have needed to do that with. Most of the people I know accepted them, which surprised me......
On July 9, it will be officially one month without a single drop of alcohol going through my lips.
I feel as if a great heavy weight has been lifted off my spirit. I feel liberated from my past, even if I still suffer the consequences of my actions (and I can live with that). Now, I am looking forward.
Best of all, I am enjoying the very things that I lost interest in some time ago, once again.
Instead of getting wasted and spending all of my time in my apartment like that, I am enjoying watching movies and playing video games. Instead of spending all of my time in my apartment, I am going out to meet with friends and close family on a regular basis. Instead of feeling self-pity over what I went through in my past, I am full of the enjoyment of how my life is at the moment, and I am also feeling the knowledge of the potential of what my life could be if I keep working on it.
I have made some very big mistakes, but I have learned from them.
I feel as if my outlook on life has went through a complete transformation in the last month - and it's all for the better. I know, it's hard to believe, but I am really feeling it.
Of course, in a year from now, I'll probably look at this post and realize how naive it actually is. I am aware that my spiritual growth has just begun - and I am also aware that spiritual perfection is an impossibility. All I can work for is a constant state of progress. One day at a time, I move a little bit more forward.
(((((((((hugs))))))))) to everybody who has been following my story and who understands where I am coming from.
And I have nothing but respect for anybody who was willing to talk blunt to me when I was in my most pathetic state - coddling me would have been the worst thing for me at those times.
I only wish I can be as good of a friend to ADISC as ADISC has been to me. I mean that sincerely.