I hate life right now.
by, 04-Jun-2010 at 03:38 (321 Views)
Last week, my wallet got stolen, and then I found out I was being sued by one of my old credit card companies. I was making payments on the card, and I managed to pay more than half of it off, but then one and a half years ago I got laid off from my steady PT job and was no longer able to make the high payments they were demanding from me. So, now I am being sued. Not that they can get anything out of me, but it still is a pain in the ass.
Making things worse is MORE drama involving my ex-roommate. He came over last week to get access to his things (which he STILL has not put into storage) and while he was here, he talked to the mailman and told him to keep sending his mail here. The mailman talked to the landlord, so when I went to the landlord to pay my rent, I ended up in a room where my landlord was literally screaming at me because the mailman reported to her and she thinks my ex-roommate is still living here with me even though he is not on the lease. She never told me that he was not allowed to receive mail here (although she claims she did tell me that before today). What fucking cunts they are - both my landlord and my ex-roommate. I was threatened with eviction all because of my ex-roommate's fucking stupidity and selfishness, acting like that without talking with me first. I can't afford to be evicted at this point in my life, because if there was a choice between death and moving back in with my mother, I would choose death in a heartbeat. Seriously.
I am tempted to hurt myself right now, to inflict pain upon myself, which is something that I have not done in the last couple of years. Seriously. Life has never gone well for me in the last three decades. If I were a decent person, I would not let things like this happen to me.
Yeah, I am drunk at the moment. I am not supposed to drink, but here I am drinking whiskey. Heh.
I probably should go to bed and try to sleep now, although I don't see how I can sleep at the moment. The thought of entering oblivion sounds very nice to me at the moment, and the only thing keeping me from pursuing that is the knowledge that there is about two or three people (who I have never even met) that will miss me if I did. Ah, well.
I will end this whiny emo blog posting here.