A nightmare is finally coming to an end.
by, 26-Apr-2010 at 04:45 (237 Views)
The lines have been drawn. I got the key back from my ex-roommate, and he'll come back one more time to gather his things once he finds a place of his own.
He was no fun to live with. He is a manic depressive with severe disconnections from reality, always running towards his own self-destruction (and claiming he is doing so for that is his way of being true and honest about who he is), and recognizing how his actions affect the lives of those around him without actually caring much about it. His recklessness is truly and deeply disturbing to me, and more than once it put me in serious peril as well.
I tried my best to help him, but he clearly does not want to be helped. My generosity has its limits, and he fucking reached them this week with a truly outlandish act that I fear may have repercussions on my life later on down the line just because I associated with him. Of course, he does not care about that - for all he cares about is "being integral to himself", no matter what the cost is to those around him. Seeing as he is manic depressive, has severe disconnections with reality, and is actually very proud of the fact that he is unmedicated, I am glad that my days with him are fucking over.
Let me put it to you like this - he may not be a DL, but he's pm the same level as D**ker with his delusional actions, and if I knew what a nutjob he actually was, I would have never associated with him in the first place - and he would have never been welcome in my apartment to begin with. He seemed like a reasonable enough man until I actually had to spend a lot of time in close proximity to him. Then I realized what a sociopath he actually is, and now I realize exactly how dangerous he is not only to himself, but to everybody around him. Seriously, I have never been more scared in my entire life than after watching him go through his reckless motions this past week. He's going downhill rapidly, but he seriously sees it as "self-improvement, healing and personal growth".
Fuck him. He is no longer welcome here. I seriously regret ever opening my door to him.