Brighter Future's Plans
by, 18-Jun-2009 at 02:27 (711 Views)
So I've come to a couple of decisions and realizations.
Well, I realized that once I turn 16, the old me will be completely gone. I will be an adult (for some things). I have to find a place at this time. So, I'm going to go out of 15 years old with a bang! I decided I'm going to live my life to the fullest until I have to be more mature.
Anyways, after that. I'm going to be studying herbs, and to be a Shinto Priestess (or miko (巫女)) Please note: A miko isn't really a sacred person or anything, she does not work like a priest. She is a shrine maiden. But, in all seriousness. I will be studying my religion really hard, as well as practicing it. I have a strange belief, not like my delusion, that... Well. I believe everyone is blessed with an element when their spirits are first created(semi-unrelated). I believe I was blessed with water. I won't go into details with that, it's nothing weird either... But, in my religion water is a very sacred thing. Rivers, lakes, ponds, all these are sacred places. I believe I am meant to do great things. And the fact I am blessed with language (like I have no problem studying any language) I think I might be a messenger of some kind. If that's not true, I still believe I am meant to do good and great things.
So anyways, while doing all that... I'm going to be patching up my life. I'll be studying for a career, and I'm not too sure about my career choice anymore. I do know I would like to do things in Japan. I know I want to go to university there. We'll see.
I've learned that in a great part of my life, people have hurt me, and for years I have hurt people. I have lost the total ability to hate. I want to forgive everyone that ever wronged me, and I hope I can be forgiven by those who've been wronged by me.
So that's all for now.