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AustinTheLionhearted

Played "Doki-Doki Literature Club"... Was Inspired to write a freestyle poem...

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Hi All,

I haven't been posting here for a while, but I have found another visual novel that I have been playing recently and I think I have been inspired... I have never liked writing poetry because it seemed too abstract, but I have tried my best to create another since I was inspired by this visual novel... Here it is and I hope you all enjoy:

I awake in my past without cause…
Detached from the life I have lived…
My mind regressed to the beginning…
And my body to a child who has innocence…
I can run through my secret garden…
Without the oppression or fear…
Is it that bad to be a child?
When all you need is love…

When society forces you to do more than you can…
Does society believe adulthood is better, when childhood is so much fun…
The melancholy of adult life is draining
It has become too much to bear
I have bore more things than most humans could bear
An yet I am here – still standing

From the trauma that my past has produced
I have been in despair
For 14 years I have suffered
And yet I bore that burden alone
Without one person to comfort me
I locked away my emotional problems
So that they would never trouble me
Yet I find myself reliving, those experiences that I have sealed
Without cause, without reason and without mercy

I have become cold, dark and a loner
Yet despite the friends that I have made
I keep them at arm’s length
So that they would not know my pain
The thought of me losing control
Has given me cause for alarm
I underestimate my strength in battle
Which has made me internalize my struggle
And made me even more dangerous
From the bubble of negativity
Which could burst at any moment
Despite this I have persevered
With academic excellence during these times
I have had good times
But none of them equate to the times before

So I regress to relieve myself
From all that I have experienced
My sins related to reliving my childhood
Are too much to count
God has forgiven me, but can I forgive myself
For the blood I have spilt and the people I have hurt
While I explored the life that I gave up
Willing to become stronger
And able to relate with the adults
Who could protect me
While at the same time
Serving my child interests
By dealing with my past
Through role-play and padding
Love and snuggling
Play and naps
Stories, bubble-baths and plushies

My therapy has done great things
I have forgiven myself for what I had done
I have accepted my inner child
And will no longer suppress it
I come out as a fur as well
Living has lordly as a Lion
Chivalrous and courageous
While still retaining
That which barely survived
Deep within me
Since the dark day
That started it all

So I regress myself
Envious of the life I have left behind
And since I can relate
I have forced myself to return to that time
The time of innocence and carefree playtime
I can be loved there without shame
Without the scorn that has happened later
I can escape my trauma and horror
That I had to endure for years
While living in complete security
Shielded from the world
That seeks to destroy me

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Until Next Time,
Austin The Lionhearted
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  1. Illinoise's Avatar
    Nice work.
  2. Starrunner's Avatar
    Very personal and moving. Thank you for sharing such deep feelings.
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