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RE: Transgender = mental illness ... Pt. 2

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How it differs from dysphoria

Dysphoria is a big word we use often. And it genuinely is the trademark of a transperson. It is extreme dissatisfaction and lack of functionality that comes with a body that does not sync up with your biological clock, and neurological alignment. And social reception is just the icing on the cake. We can all romanticize that we are the opposite gender. We all feel we have our feminine or masculine sides. Some more profound than others.

But if we can have sex and reproduce comfortably and feel “at home” in our bodies as a whole, from the skin, to the hair, to the genitals, than we can “Advertise” ourselves as masculine or feminine, but we necessarily don’t need procedures to function. I know plenty-a-masculine female and feminine male. They all considered the HRT approach, but if they were able to have sex and function without procedures, then, it just makes sense. They didn’t need it. I could have felt masculine and solved it socially with a simple conversation. Dysphoria runs deeper than that.

“But… but, Reaper! I am in touch with my feminine side. I get manicures. I trim my beard or my eyebrows. I’m fancy sometimes. Doesn’t that mean I’m leaning towards dysphoria?”

No. Those are just embellishments on the outside. That’s just a hygiene method that you have. If you fundamentally felt that you, on the inside, were “pink” instead of “blue”, and all of your “blue” components, your beard, your rough skin, your body hair, etc. made you feel like an alien in your own body, that’s dysphoria.

Dysphoria often manifests itself and wears many hats. I was diagnosed with the entire DSM-V and was hit with a neuroleptic lottery before I was able to clear all those diagnoses, and the medication, when we discovered I was simply trans, and the tree that was sprouting all of these mental illnesses… was extreme psychological dissatisfaction with my biological gender.

I developed depression around the same year I hit puberty. It morphed into anxiety. It morphed into paranoia. It morphed into Bipolar I. It morphed into borderline. It morphed into psychosis. It morphed into schizo-affective... I was taking enough pills to be full in the morning, and that 80 lb weight gain I talked about? No surprise there. These diagnoses were cleared by a long-term specialist, and I am no longer taking these meds, nor am I operating under these diagnoses in a healthcare setting. And I haven’t been for five years.


Maybe I should touch on the obvious...

There are people who have asked me "IF YOU TRANSITION TO A MALE, CAN I TRANSITION TO A FERRET. WHAT'S SO DIFFERENT BETWEEN TRANS-SPECISISM AND TRANSGENDERISM"

There is no biological prospect for you to be a surgically-born ferret. There is no DNA
sequence to “queue” you into being a ferret later on in life. Hopefully, unless your mother fucked around with ferrets. If that’s the case, then, I’m sorry.

There is even some circulation in the works, from the DD-lg umbrella of ageplay (another reason why I resent them), where the littles are claiming to be “age-dysphoric” and trans-age. They are trying to set the wheels in motion for acceptance.

I know I could not function as a woman. I had to be a breadwinner, repair things, sexually penetrate others, have rough skin, and a deep voice, to feel “normal”. If you feel you cannot function as an adult, pay a bill, work a job, perform activities of daily living and govern your own affairs? Then you need a mental defective declaration, and to be a ward of the state. You don’t need fucking acceptance. Actual “age-dysphoric” people and those who are trans-age are those who are developmentally disabled. Keep making a circus sideshow out of those who are less fortunate. Shame on you.

So again, in summary, dysphoria is a lack of satisfaction that impairs you from functioning. It is the opposite of euphoria. It doesn’t have to be gender related. But the mental illness thing that seems to be a hot word on the gossip wire right now… that’s the “dysphoria”.


This is where the "mental illness" comes into play.

I will spiral down a path of sickness and insanity and general instability if you treat me overtly feminine. Baby girl is a “trigger” word for me that makes me physically retch in my stomach. I know that when a man treats me like a little girl, he’s treating me in a feminine manner. I know when a man pats me on the back and says “keep up the good work, boss” or “son” or “bud”, like a young dude, that is a healing gesture to me. I can honestly feel that building me up inside.

A personal note is that many transmen or women probably didn't share in the struggles I did when coming into puberty. I had experienced a series of sexual assaults, gang violence, ritualistic sexual abuse, parental verbal abuse for 18+ years, and recent homelessness in my life. This is why I consider feminine treatment as a "trigger" and a huge annoyance when I was "F" but something that disturbs me as an "M". I am undergoing therapy to come to grips with the traumas I endured, and that's my personal journey. I don't expect others to flex or bow to my gender identity, but I can anticipate a general "decomp" into depression and PTSD symptoms if I am treated in a way that makes me feel exploited, trapped, or sexually endangered.

Being in my 20s, I have to accept that I am a bit of a kid to people I’m surrounded by. But there’s a level of comradery in an older man treating a younger man like a younger man, vs. an older man treating a young woman like a “girl”. There’s a lot of patriarchal nuances there. I have a zero tolerance policy for that. When presenting as an F, I was just fine and accepted it was part of the ticket of being a woman and another inconvenience to tolerate. Now, as an M, I understand men are going to shit-test me and muscle me off the side of the road, etc. That's part of the ticket of being a man. And that's just fine.

The “others” LGBT...qiaptzx...y? Oh no, that’s right. SJWs.

(This next portion of my post is heavily insensitive and opinionated, and why the preface is there. I understand, again, that I may be wrong, or an asshole in your eyes, but this is my method of thinking. A lot of genuine transpeople feel the same way.)

Some may come on here and speak about a “spectrum” of gender. I have grey-area feelings about this “spectrum” of gender, but there is no biological function that differentiates them, and they do not exist to me personally.

Also… I can’t really say I’ve ever heard of this phenomenon throughout American history. The gays and transfolk and queers have always been there. This shit hasn’t.

….However, middle-class helicopter and over-protective parenting is alive and well. And most of the people pulling new genders out of their ass everyday are bored, spoiled upper middle-class white kids who haven’t really endured much hardship or much struggle, and know they don’t have the oppression points to weigh in their word in a political debate. They feel they can usurp the identity of transpeople to compensate for those oppression points, because in the political theater today, oppression points are a grand acceptable currency.

But it is a common misconstruction to associate SJW’s with LGBT folk. They all claim they’re “Trans”. The transpeople are quietly going about their business as they always did. In 10 years when they’re still arguing about their fussy pronouns and their bogus identities, I’ll just be a dude.

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Below, is a video of one of my heroes, explaining the phenomenon as to why people are inclined to disrespect transpeople due to the SJW "movement".




But you are an AB, does that make you trans-age, too?

No.
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  1. KimbaWolfNagihiko's Avatar
    My general opinion is that people can call themselves whatever they want and ''be'' whatever they want as long as they don't go out of their way to bother other people with it. I don't keep tabs on ''social justice warriors'' so I don't know the extent of how much they follow or break that rule, although I must say there are always going to be bad apples in every bunch. If you think you're part ferret, well, at the end of the day that's probably not going to affect me much. You do you, as they say. If it makes you happy and doesn't hurt yourself or others, go for it.

    As for a ''spectrum'' of gender, well, I'm no expert in such matters, but I do have some minor personal experiences. I'm biologically female, but when it comes to my adult baby side, I sometimes feel more like a boy. Last year I had a period where these feelings were quite strong, and sort of preferred if a friend called me a boy rather than a girl. I dunno. Feelings change, I guess.

    I don't use the term, but I suppose based on the definition and the way I tend to feel, I could be considered ''age-dysphoric'. I know that I've been on this Earth 24 years and thus, I am an adult. But yet... I don't feel like one. I feel more like a kid who just never grew up, I suppose. The adult world is daunting to me. To be fair, I am developmentally disabled, with autism. But my intelligence is intact. I could probably survive on my own with the right supports in place. In the end... it's just who I am. I can't change that. If people don't like it, that's their problem, not mine, and I go on with my life. There's always going to be people who don't quite understand, and I'm not going to sit and worry about it. Life's too short for that shit.
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