Lowie

So yeah, as the title says.. I'm like totally fucking stressed right now. Why am I stressed? Cause of all the negative shit in my life that has happened recently...

Lets see, about 4-5 weeks ago a close friend of mine was shot.. hes still in the hospital, and will be for 2 weeks. Everybody was worried for me, more then him. I don't know why

On top of that, I get death treats. People gonna shoot me, stab me, murder me etc. It's just too much, even my mom is stressed over it. We've gone to the police, but they wont do jack all. Fucking pricks. I don't know why people want to kill me, I hang out with my group of friends, barely speak to them as is. It's fucking lame, and scary..

Then I got kicked out of school recently, because I was avoiding it due to all the treats I've been getting. I told the principal, a counselor , and the school cop. They all fucking laughed in my face. So I avoided it like hell.

Plus, a few days ago me, my mom, stepdad, and my aunt and uncle were talking about my school situation, and they all said they wish I'd get shot and killed. WHAT THE FUCK!? Who the hell would say that to their son/nephew? Seriously, It fucking hit me hard, I cried for an hour and a bit..

And just today I found out, if a mortgage payment don't go through, I could be homeless at the end of the month.

Lastly, I've been having horrible nightmares lately.. some are days from my past.. which include the day I watched my friend shoot himself (I was 8 or 9 at the time) and the time when I found my cousins body in my uncles barn (I was 12, and we were close) plus, there is other dreams.. like my close friends are getting beheaded and the heads are falling onto my lap then I get stabbed by stuff and die... It's keeping me up, I barely sleep anymore.. I fucking hate it...

tl;dr Life sucks.

(Copied from my FA + I apologize for all the swearing)