by, 29-Mar-2016 at 22:21 (115 Views)
So its official now
Today I was diagnosed having a "depressive episode", ICD10-code F32.9G
Too bad the doc only knows a tiny fraction of my story. I wanted to tell him two fractions, actually. But then there are these times when physician's assistants barge into the room stand and stare and won't leave. I mean WTF? Aren't we supposed to have SOME privacy, even IF they know most to everything the doctor knows since they handle the patients and the documents, but seriously
I couldn't get out any more words when she stood there. I'm glad I didn't have to speak anymore that is. I got referenced to a specialist. Have to make another appointment. Then talk AGAIN. I didn't expect me to have much problems sitting in there. But what do you know...
I was shaking, my stomach felt like it had to digest a ton of rubble and I teared up. In front of him. So embarrassing. Good thing after all though, I was afraid he would believe I am only telling a story.
But here I am throwing in the first of the pills he put me on (mirtazapine) so I can finally get some much needed rest. Don't know how these will work on me. I'm afraid of them just as much as of my doctor. And people. Shopping. Thunderstorms. Darkness
Riced fairy dust. Hope this makes me fly