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Autism, Cerebral Palsy, and being an "Adult Baby"...#267

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Almost Midnight.
Soon it will be Wednesday.
As a member of the Board of Directors of the non-profit organization I belong to, I had to be at a City Council Meeting in Lawrence, MA.
They approved our 1st annual fundraising walk/run for this Spring coming up.
Yes, adult responsibilities, but necessary.
I did also wash a load of dirty towels and face hand cloths.
Tomorrow, I have to clean my guinea pig pet's cage.
He is doing okay.
I also have dishes to wash tomorrow.
I also have to see my Urologist tomorrow.
I have to allow her to physically check where pee-pee comes from on my body.
Very difficult.
As an autistic person, I experience some cognitive/emotional distress regarding being touched there.
Growing up, my late Mom always violated my "personal physical space", even also barging into the bathroom when I was bathing/showering, and toileting.
She was even doing it to me when I was an adult.
I felt "violated" all the time.
Sorry, just very difficult to remember and to talk about.
I feel shame that my late Mom never respected my physical space, and my personal body space.
Nobody has any right whatsoever to do to anyone what she did to me for decades.
Yes, shame, but also intense rage inside still about this.

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