I just want to scream
by, 25-Sep-2015 at 05:34 (407 Views)
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhholgjpegtjpwgtjwptgojadgkjoqe ;gjpwgtjperijgyoejyh;ehyj;hyjpyoj5;kymuh;ey;ekj okay... I feel better. I am so sorry that I am a waste of time. I might be helped by my therapist but I feel like such a lost cause. Who wants to suffer? Apparently me... I hate anything that makes me feel good because I feel guilty for it. I don't deserve to be a Christian because I am such a poor example... I apologize also to Jesus for making a scene out of everything I say and do. my life is nothing but pain but then again.. .we all have scars, so what? Everyone hurts. My pain is okay and shouldn't stop because why do I need to be happy? I'm not being sarcastic either folks. I want last place, not first. I have no competitive spirit, That was bullied out of me years ago. Maybe I'll get better... maybe then people won't dispise me so much. Wish me luck... I would say friends but I don't know who here would consider me a friend since I just push people way. I am going to spend time crying and praying hopefully maybe I can force myself to get a GED if I fail that, oh well. I can try again right? I also need a drivers license. With the help of a select few from ADISC, God, a miracle, and some hard work... I'll lead a new life that I need to. I hope all of you who suffer recover quickly and don't end up like me. Learn from my mistakes and carry on.