12-the end of the 3rd act, the start of the 4th
by, 03-Jun-2015 at 01:37 (246 Views)
yesterday i turned thirty... feels a tad weird to say that.
today i trund thirty and i dont feel a day over well who am i kidding around these parts am i right.
I have had a real struggle trying to write of late, but i have it ....
So i went to my home town this weekend for a funeral. a few of us showed up to pay respects. And after we had a little gathering. it was pretty awesome , funeral aside. but i realized that I have changed so much in the last 2 years even that hanging with people from my home place was difficult at first. I realized immediately that i had been wearing a mask for most of the day. that i was hiding from them. its weird really, I guess I was so used too it while i lived there that it was default. but since i have spent so much time finding who i am going back to that place feels , well ,weird. i still care deeply for the people there and those good friends that i have. i love my family and hope that i can one day return the favor they did me in raising me . but the truth remains that i am different now, I am not at all the same person i was when i left. its nice but at the same time life is weird..
thank you guys for being here for me for the time i have spent growing, even if it was during the lurking times! and here is to the future and continuing to grow/ regress :P