by, 28-May-2015 at 09:41 (484 Views)
This isn't about suicide. I can't stress that enough. I'm strong to a certain poin, but I'm thinking I'm not meant to be alone. I don't know why, but I'm scared of a lot of things. They are stupid things. The dark, bugs, hospitals, any one I don't know, and what feels me with dread. The future. I've always believed in the match of time. But since I can't control my path I've been losing my mind trying to figure out what is the next step. I have no clue what to do. I'm in a fog with no light to guide me. I've always felt greatness from my future, but I don't feel it anymore. I'm gifted to have a memory that's near perfect. I've spent years gathering infomation on different subjects. Science, math, computers, cars, guns, english, history, medicine, and even religions. I know all these facts, but what was the point to it?
Honestly I think I have no point in this world. I'm only filler. My heart tells me no, but the more I look at it. It seems like it's true. Back to the subject at hand I think I need someone to watch over me. I'm bad at being an adult. I don't eat right. I can't bring myself to go to bed at a decent time. Even at work I mostly play around. (The job is really boring, so that one is justified)