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Autism, Cerebral Palsy, and being an "Adult Baby"...#167

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I will admit to experiencing a period of Autistic
Catatonia this afternoon for a period of 4 hours.
I was mute, totally immobile, and my mind was
in "neutral", and not thinking about anything,
until my alarm function on my cellular telephone
went off at 6:00 PM.
All I did was stare blankly at the ceiling in my
bedroom lying in my bed in nothing but my diaper
with the monotonous drone of the air-conditioner
running.
It has been hot outside today all day.
My mind was cognitively "disconnected" from my
body, except for the tactile sensations in my diaper,
which I uncontrollably wetted multiple times during
my "eyes wide open" catatonic period, which as I
have said, lasted for 4 uninterrupted hours.
Looking back at my behavior this afternoon, I guess
my mind was cognitively shut-down for a while.
Other than the multiple uncontrollable diaper wettings,
roughly every 90 minutes, I guess I experienced
overwhelmingly intense pleasurable tactile sensation
inside my diaper, but with my mind catatonic and mute,
I could not "identify" what was going on inside my
diaper with my body, with the exception of the multiple
incontinent wettings.
Really...
As an "Adult Baby", I am utterly not supposed to have
any understanding of what happens inside my own
incontinence diaper 24 hours a day, except for the
intermittent physical tactile sensations of wetting and
messing in my diaper(s).
Other thoughts and knowledge of "that sick and dirty
function" related to my body are "utterly forbidden".
Emotionally, I am only a "little boy".
I am not a "grown-up".
Emotional Toddlers like me can not be grown-up with
respect to one's body and are forbidden to know all
about grown-up knowledge and cognitive feelings about
my body.
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