Medical Stuff - I'll be OK
by, 16-Apr-2015 at 23:53 (2459 Views)
(Sorry for the long length of this journal / blog, but I want everyone to understand fully whatís going on. I will answer many questions regarding this journal, but not all, that anyone has about whatís happening. Some of this Iím just not ready to talk about. But I did promise several people to explain why Iíve been sick / hurt lately).
I have been short with people on some of my social media lately, and Iím truly sorry for that. Hopefully, this will explain whatís been going on in my personal life lately thatís causing it. I also blame some of the pain medications that Iíve been on. Sometimes I havenít been thinking clearly due to either pain or the medications.
Starting around the beginning of January, I started to experience extreme pain in my right leg. I had some pain in my lower back at times, but not that often. The pain was primarily focused on my leg. Whenever I was asked to describe this pain, the best way that I could explain it was:
ďImage your leg was dipped in gasoline, and then set on fire. While burning, knives were then stabbed into my hip, thigh, calf, and ankle. When it wasnít burning, (which was rare), itíll always tingle, like my leg was falling asleep. Walking very short distances would also cause my calf muscle to feel like itíd run a marathon.Ē
Usually the only time that I could find relief from the pain, was when I was laying on my back. There was some pain while walking at times, but it was sitting that was extremely painful. The drive to and from TFF, wasÖ.agony. But Iíd made a promise to go.
There were days that the pain was so bad, that I physically couldnít stand. If I tried to stand, I might be able to stand for a few seconds, before collapsing to the ground. Sometimes even laying down didnít help. I havenít had a good night of sleep in months. Iíll sleep a few hours before the pain wakes me up, and I canít go back to bed. I was pretty sad to see, at times. Sometimes Iíd lay on the ground screaming for hours, wishing for the pain to stop.
I have many jobs. I work as a farmer for my family farm & as a volunteer firefighter. Both of these jobs require a lot of physical work. The pain was so bad, that I havenít been able to do any of this work in several months.
Iím a fairly young, healthy, and physically fit guy, from all the physical work that Iíve done since I was very young. So this was something that I wasnít used to experiencing.
After putting up with the pain for almost 4 months, I needed to see someone. The pain wasnít getting better, it was getting worse over time. I had originally thought that the pain was being caused by my sciatic nerve. But Iíd never heard of sciatic nerve pain feeling the way mine felt, or lasting for this length of time. The more that time went on, the more I began to suspect something was terribly wrong with me.
One of the downsides to back and leg pain, is that most doctors donít want to see you. Theyíll tell you that itíll go away over time. You just need to rest. The natural assumption is that back / leg pain, is probably a sciatic nerve issue. My age, and physical fitness, made it extremely hard for finding a doctor that would see me, as well. Someone my age shouldnít be having this kind of problem.
So it was naturally assumed by all the doctors that I attempted to see, that I was nothing more than a drug addict, which was faking pain, in attempt to get painkillers. I canít even count how many different doctorís offices I tried to go too, and was turned away. I remember my mother driving me to 5 different doctors in one day alone.
One of my biggest problems is that I donít have a regular doctor. I hadnít needed to see a doctor in about 10-15 years. I did have one doctor believe me about the pain, and gave me a prescription to some painkillers, which did help take the edge off on the bad days. He told me that it was a sciatic nerve, and itíd go away in a few weeks. I tried to explain to him that it wasnít a sciatic nerve, and I needed tests. I was ignored.
The pain got so bad at one point, I was taken to the ER. The ER doctor thought that I was a drug seeker. He kept asking me questions that would reveal that I was, but I didnít give him the answers that he wanted. He finally yelled at me, ďWhat the hell are you doing here?Ē I responded that something was very wrong. It wasnít a sciatic nerve, and that I needed to have an MRI done. I was escorted out of the buildingÖ
I had a friend from High School, whose dad is an MD. He was one of the doctors that had refused to see me, because he thought I was wanting drugs. I had to call his son, and beg him to get his dad to see me. I had to explain, that at no point would I ask for drugs. I simply wanted to know what was wrong with me, so that I could stop the pain.
His father agreed to see me. During his exam of me, he began to suspect that I was telling the truth, that something horrible was wrong, and it wasnít a sciatic nerve.
He immediately sent me to see a neurologist. The Neurologist agreed that it wasnít sciatic. Itíd only taken almost a month, for people to finally listen to me, and over the next two weeks, I was subjected to a wide assortment of tests. (MRIís, CT Scan, X-rays, EMG test, etc.)
Today I was given the results of these tests:
There is a spot on my lower spine causing:
-The circulation in my right leg to be restricted (not completely cut off).
-Several nerves are being pinched.
-Several nerves have been damaged and arenít transmitting correctly.
This is being caused by a spot in my lower spine. I donít want to fully say what the spot is, causing these problems, because if I say the word, itíll have everyone more worried than they should be, and I also donít want to say it personally. Not saying it, helps keep it ďnot really happeningĒ in my mind.
I will be having a surgical consult very soon. I was told that I shouldnít worry. Itís a very common procedure, with extremely high success rates with little chance of risks. Now I know & understand that this is very serious, since itíll be a spinal surgery. I havenít even fully explained this to my parents. But the confidence of the doctors has left me feeling OK with whatís about to happen.
I wanted you guys to know this. But please donít feel sorry for me. I worried and scared, yes. But Iím hopeful that everything will turn out OK.