Depressed :(

[Atsu]

I know exactly how you feel, except it's about something different. It's not very fun. But well, you get better with it the more you learn that it's just yourself. Don't change yourself for anyone else. I'm still learning to not be embarrased or depressed about it, but before I wouldn't even admit it to myself. So, just so you know, it gets better with time ^.~

[Peachy]

Originally Posted by tom

Dave- I love London..the buzz, its great.

I regularly get sick of the "London Buzz" after about 3-4 days. There's only so often I can cope with being trapped in an overcrowded Tube train with no space to raise or lower my arms and with playing dodg'ems on the street due to the millions of people walking all over the place.

Peachy

[King of Clubs]

i keep well away from london... it has the same population as scotland

[Tommy]

Originally Posted by Confusion

i keep well away from london... it has the same population as scotland

yea yea yea confusion, it's always about scotland with you mate :P

[dogboy]

I had the same guilt feelings for years. I hated myself for that and for other things that invaded my mind. Over the years I have made peace with it all. It doesn't hurt anybody, not even myself. Life is hard and difficult. I do positive things in my life, and I help others. Look at your total self. Wearing the occasional diaper is pretty small in the grand scheme of things. If you're a good person, you are so far ahead of the curve from so many others. And in the final analysis, you didn't chose this, it chose you.

[King of Clubs]

great post dog

[Dave]

Well I don't know if you guys know this but if you consciously force yourself to think happy thoughts you will eventually become happy? So why not start forcing yourself to think that whatever is upsetting you is actually a good thing and then you will make it so. Ohh... the power of the brain is totally freakin' sweet, so use it.

[Lukie]

Originally Posted by Darkfinn

Typically the calmer and more "normal" we appear in public... the stranger things get at home.

By that standard, I shouldn't have this fetish at all!


Nonetheless, I think you have to realise that it is a part of you and you won't be able to get rid of it. You can try, but from what I've seen with a lot of previous examples, they all relapse back into it. You have two options, to continue to deny and walk down the road of depression, guilt and anxiety over it. Or you can accept it as part of who you are and at least be on comfortable terms with it.

Even if you accept it, that doesn't necessarily mean you shouldn't have negative feelings about it. I still feel like a huge oddball at times when I get myself diapered up, or participate in some sort of regression/roleplay. But when that happens, I just accumulate all the positive things about it and focus on those things - like, it being a huge stress reliever, or the whole comfortableness and security I get from being snugged up in a diaper.

You aren't alone with your parents-thing either. A lot of people here don't wish for their parents to know, nor do they ever plan on telling them - either out of fear of reprimand, or simply for the fact they really just don't need to know. Just like a lot of other things in this world, sometimes it's best just to hide it from certain people. You may feel a bit guilty about living a lie at times, but realise there is the possibility that your life could spiral downwards if someone did find out.

Other than that, I can't think of much else to say aside from that there is no point in beating yourself up over this. It's one the most safest fetishes out there to practice, and you can tell from this community that you aren't alone in any aspect regarding it. I'm sure at least one of us here has experienced anything you could fathom up with this fetish.

[Tommy]

Ok, i have a little tip!

Get your right thumb, and your right ring finger, and squeeze them together. This off one of the most happiest times you remember, think about it whilst squeezing those two fingers, and when you let go it should increase your happiness