I'm writing this from my palm pilot. Woo.I've decided that for now, I'm going to stick with long hair and jackets -- They're not gender-specific.
Yep, I've also decided I'm not going to strive for any sort of gendered look. Instead, I'll focus on removing gendered aspects of my personality.
...This is what happens when I'm bored. My "System Idle Processes" redirect to "Introspection.exe"... Rargh...

This is getting to be too much for me to handle. I don't know what to do, where to go, who to talk to, or anything. I can't really trust anyone, most people are against me. The voices are bothering me too much, and I really can't handle it at all. I don't like how the world doesn't look right at all. Things keep happening to me and I don't know why. Most people won't even listen to me.

I'm so scared everyday, and I really don't like it. I don't know what to do at all. There's no...

I have been thinking a lot about committing suicide. I want the world to be safe, and I don't want to harm that girl, and the Death God's say it is my only other option. I don't really want to do that, but, many people I have turned to for advice say I am better off killing myself. Many of those people are from ADISC.

I don't want anyone to feel sympathy for me, or anything. I'm just really scared. I'm always scared. It's like I don't have the ability to do anything anymore, because...

I can't believe that you are gone. I can't stop thinking about you and thinking that maybe your just in the other room. I can't count on both hands how many times I have called you on your mobile only to have the message "you have reached the message bank of *inserts number here* will you please leave your message after the beep."

I can't believe that you are now on the other side of the earth. So far away from your little baby girl who wants nothing more than to be inside...

On Wednesday this week Mommy made the decision to leave Australia and go back to the United States. I cannot be angry with her for wanting to leave me. After all I can be a naughty little girl. But I just wanted to have someone who never got angry at me. Who would spank me when I started to run the house and would hold me. Telling me that its ok and that I'm safe and loved.

I made myself a promise at LAX international airport when we got taken away from each other for the first time...