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Posted 20-08-2009 at 12:38 AM by Mugiwara
Yo yo yo Mugiwara here repressenting!
You guys here will be alittle of a shrink for me since I cant really get myself out there so much saying what I really mean.
So how have things been going? okay I guess. a big part of my heart has died and everyday I live through without a reason. but I gotta focus on the good things like the good times. becuase then when I get older he will be at some gates(not christian since that concept died along time ago, just religious) and he will be there hugging me. Thinking he is just rotting is something I cant handle it will turn me insane quite fast.I just want to be with him again and would do anything for it to happen.
I want use something that will get me unsober but I havent been able to get something that could help me with that and ofcourse my big brother would kill me if he saw me this sad, he must be prout at how good I am doing. after having everyting planned out in life to nothing actually happening. Maybe I should do all those things anyway and see those places for him?
thanks for the support guys, I feel like Im not liked here by the majority due to maybe stupid posts by me or Im an asshole/dick. Well sorry about that. and to those of you that care anyway Thanks, no really your great!
You guys here will be alittle of a shrink for me since I cant really get myself out there so much saying what I really mean.
So how have things been going? okay I guess. a big part of my heart has died and everyday I live through without a reason. but I gotta focus on the good things like the good times. becuase then when I get older he will be at some gates(not christian since that concept died along time ago, just religious) and he will be there hugging me. Thinking he is just rotting is something I cant handle it will turn me insane quite fast.I just want to be with him again and would do anything for it to happen.
I want use something that will get me unsober but I havent been able to get something that could help me with that and ofcourse my big brother would kill me if he saw me this sad, he must be prout at how good I am doing. after having everyting planned out in life to nothing actually happening. Maybe I should do all those things anyway and see those places for him?
thanks for the support guys, I feel like Im not liked here by the majority due to maybe stupid posts by me or Im an asshole/dick. Well sorry about that. and to those of you that care anyway Thanks, no really your great!
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Livet kommer alltid ha motgångar, det finns även inte mycket än att acceptera det. Jag känner inte dig särskilt väl, så är lite försiktig med vad jag säger, men sa allt på i ett positivt ljus. Du verkar ha en bror som bryr sig mycket om dig, och jag själv vet hur viktigt det kan vara för en. Jag till exempel älskar min bror, han betyder mycket för mig och vi har växt upp med varandra. Så som du själv sa, se det från den ljusa sidan. Efter smärta kommer lyckan! Det gäller bara att hålla i sig i något tills det onda går bort, och det är väl det du får göra. Bara hålla i det goda.Posted 20-08-2009 at 01:09 AM by Crassi
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Jävla sömntabletter.... Näh de jag menade med bror var asså han som har passerat vidare, Var så jävla tight med han, berättade att jag var en teenbaby, åh han acceperade det! sa det var väll inte så farligt, erbjöd sig till och med att köpa hem blöjor åt mig. Sen var han tvungen att ta en överdos.
Men liksom jag är inte längre självmords benägen så mycket, men om jag skulle bli skjuten nu t.ex. då skulle jag inte bry mig. det skulle inte vara så farligt.
Jag tror inte jag har sett dig här förut, är du ny eller typ bytt bara namn?
Posted 20-08-2009 at 09:30 PM by Mugiwara
