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My god they are everywhere!!!!

Fire2box — Thu, 28 May 2009 21:13:35 GMT

Today me and/or my dad have nearly been hit by 3 different cars and I personally witnessed 2 car's going across 2 or more lanes at one time.

The first case was walking into costco though the costco parking lot. Some person was trying to find a good spot in the section with all the handicap signs so I guess they felt the need to move fast or at least not stop. Well, as it is, people on foot have the right away in parking lots even if the spot you and your one pissed of son of a bitch.

so I push the cart and myself in front of this car and it comes within a foot of hitting me, thank god the guy had good brakes. I did not think he/she was going to stop, so my curiosity really got the better of me and I did not really care what happened afterward. I was pissed as it is even before going into a shopping warehouse FILLED with stupid idiot's it seems.

On the way back home a guy was merging into the lane me and my dad were in, but before he does this he has to get right up on my side of the car. I tell my dad "Don't even move a inch for this guy" and thankfully my dad did not budge. If this guy wanted to get into a accident with us, fucking let him since it would be his fault.

So I end up looking up at the guy since he's in his black F-150 or some other truck like it and it looks at my car like we are doing something wrong. The guy clearly saw that he had to merge but he wanted to speed up and try and pass a car that was impossible to pass in it's current position. I am sure the guy was pissed that such a little 2 door fireo did not scoot over and sideswipe another car. :P

Now me and my dad are about 3 blocks away from our house.. a kid that looked under the age to even be driving runs a stop sign and would of hit us if we were a few seconds a head of time with my side taking the blunt of the impact. The kid had his seat laid back and he could barely see over the dashboard and car door!

Anyways there's my blog post rant. For whoever read's this, please don't be this stupid. I beg you.

At a crossroads.

Fire2box — Thu, 23 Apr 2009 23:00:59 GMT

Over quite sometime my life has been coming up to a boiling point and today seems to be that fateful day where I should put all the fucking damn bullshit I have ever known and done behind me.

The first thing I want to get off my chest is my the way my grandmother treated me and how my dad picked up the fuckin slack for it after she died.

My grandmother never abused me, she never did anything wrong other then the fact she would never let me fucking grow up. I don't care if I was the last of her flipping grand children, but was she that way fuck no. So what does she do, she fucking spoiled me to the extent all the other siblings in my own home and at my aunt's hated it. I have several ideas to why she did this but my theory's don't matter what does/did matter is she never let me grow up which I needed to do.

So when I was about maybe 10 she finally died thanks to countless years of smoking and knowing in the end it was going to kill her and it did. Anyways after that my dad most likely picked up the slack of spoiling me which really pissed off my sister who was just becoming a teenager. She surely needed my attention and love then a spoiled 11 year old brat such as me. However she couldn't take that bullshit so she moved to our aunt's house and for good reason too.

My dad has always said that both of my siblings moving out years before they were 18 was their own choice, and it was however I can FULLY understand why they did. Right now I am at that same boiling point of saying fuck you, I don't need your FUCKING GOD DAMN BULLSHIT.

My dad has effortlessly driven everyone away from him and never tried to work out his problems with them, ever. Today he was the one that got pissed off while driving over some stupid maneuver a idiot in a Mazda 3 did. He got so pissed off he nearly crashed into the back of one of his friend's cars. After that I wasn't going to ride with this fucktard if he get's so pissed off about someone not using their blinker when you could predict they were going to turn into your lane anyways.

So he's yet to say I am sorry for getting pissed off, taking it out on you and nearly slamming into my friends car and pulling up slightly on the side walk at 15 mph, if not more. So I walked back home with what has to be over 5 miles and took a hour. I did not have my Ipod with me so I was left to pounder everything about my life which was needed anyways.

So now, fuck this bullshit of a life I am going to change for the better and if my dad wants to stay stuck here in the fucking put of hell I am not going to drag him along. He can do whatever the fuck he wants and be devoid of any emotion but anger if he wants but if he's still acting that way anytime soon he will indeed lose the last child he has. At that point in time I think he will finally fucking see what he's been doing all these past 26 years since he's tried to start a failure of a family and it will eat him alive. I bet it already started some time ago and that's why he's still pissed off.

(A hour or two later after my inital posting of this... I was a bit harsh however I do think all of what I said is true. I also know no one intentionally meant to hurt anyone in anyway, but shit happens as it did here.)

"Avoiding" the holidays.

Fire2box — Fri, 14 Nov 2008 23:26:37 GMT

Well last night I made my choice of not going up to my mom's nor Oregon for the "holidays" this year. My main reasons are since I can't drive up there on my own I would have to force my dad to drive again for maybe the 20th+ time in this past decade or so. I know the drive sucks for him and there's mountain ranges no matter what way we go.

So there's always the worry about getting snowed in on some dumb pass or hour long delays and what not. Frankly it just overall sucks on the drive up there asides for the summer time.

But I got a whole list of reasons and I doubt anyone here would really care to hear them all.

So I called my mom and she expressed sorrow about me not coming up but she does seam to understand why I don't feel like it. I been to her town ton's of times in the past few years.

I also called up my older brother who wanted to see me on my 21st brithday which is now in 6 days. <_> So I only got to leave him a message like usual. It was pretty much him doing the planning this time but he only brought it up a few weeks ago. Plenty of time to get things in order I guess but not enough time to get me in the mood of wanting to go. Anyways I am hopping I dint hurt any of their feelings or the feelings of their respective family's.

My Brithday, The Holidays and all that stuff I don't really like that goes with it.

Fire2box — Fri, 07 Nov 2008 05:36:57 GMT

Well a few days ago my real older brother called me and hinted at wanting to go to our mom's for thanksgiving and my 21st birthday which is on the 20th. Anyways I went to my brother's wedding back in July and considering I can't drive myself up to Oregon I would have to enlist my dad to drive yet again. Over the past 7 years I been to Oregon and back countless times. Its a long drive that takes about 7 hours and that's with good timing.

I don't like making my dad drive me up there that's why I am trying to get my license and my own car. I really feel sorry for my dad since he has to drive back down with only himself. Rarely does anyone want to take a "free" road trip and when they do they hate me and my dad's arguing. That and just being in a car road trip is tiring and somewhat boring.

Not only this but my little half brother is a gamer like me though not as smart nor mature. So I have to bring up my Wii every time to keep him happy and off my back plus my DS so me and him could link with ours. Not only this but my mom has a really shitty computer can't even play Morrorwind I bet so I naturally want to bring my gaming rig. That's a lot of stuff and that doesn't even count my clothing, shaving gel and all that shit.

When I get there its utter chaos in my head and I hate leaving my dad for such a long time since I pretty much have always lived with the guy. Anyways my mom and brother both want me to come up there for my brithday and thanksgiving and somewhere either before that or in between it will be the anniversary of my older sisters death. My mom is still sad over it even though its been a few years. I can understand that but really I hate being around her like that.

Anyways just going up to Oregon at least once if not twice every year is a damn drag. Plus I am not very social in real life (unlike online) so I really hate the people that use the holidays to be EXTRA social. Not to mention I can't really bring any of my TB stuff with me since I get to share a room with my little half brother so even my pacifier is out of the question.

Drivers Permit!

Fire2box — Thu, 30 Oct 2008 00:27:59 GMT

Well yesterday I finally went to the DMV and took the learners permit test. I could of went in and took the real drivers test but I got no time behind the wheel. So anyways the written test had 36 questions and I could miss a total of 6 and still pass, 7 or more would of been been a fail. I missed only 4 and the ones I missed barely have to do with road safety.

Anyways its good for a year and I only need a 18+ year old adult with a license to use it while they ride in the right seat. The car my dad has is a stick shift and I tried it out today and I am so damn scared of it. As soon as I let go of the clutch the car gives it a little gas by itself and you have to increase the gas to get it under control.

So hopefully we can fix one of the automatic cars we have (please don't let it be the damn minivan!)

So yeah that's about it. Also I don't mind driving clutch its just that it takes off a little by itself and I hate being in full control and fully responsible over what happens plus you can't see everywhere at once. But automatic should be easier on me.

So, anyways how the hell do you people drive so clam/smoothly?

First Blog Whoooo!!!

Fire2box — Wed, 11 Jun 2008 18:40:26 GMT

::Sighs:: Why am I even trying to make a blog again, it failed the first time I tried it about 2 years ago.

Well anyways I'll just get to what I been feeling and been up to.

First item on the list of things to discuss is... The Car Accident I was in just over a week ago. I am not going to talk about the accident itself as I have done that enough already. What I do want to discuss is Faith and it changing my "world view".

Now crashing at whatever speed on a freeway and rolling over and walking out of the van itself pretty much unhurt at all I thought I would not take things for granted as much and have more faith in god and all that jazz.

Well I guess I have, I been a little more social, I want to improve my life for the better, I want to improve my faith yet not be one of those bible thumpers where I'll force god into your life and your face.

As for my stance on my education I been "done" with high school for the past 6 months, everyone's known it. Its just not Offical yet since I have done crap on my senior project which is a requirement to graduate. I assume my school is just going to let it slide so I need to get in contact with them tomorrow.

I am also worried about how I am going to be paying for college even if I am going to my local one here in town thats about 6 miles away. I also fear what the workload will be.

Anyways I should break stuff up into small parts and do what I can and not worry so much about the big picture. I and no one else ca do everything at once after all.