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snapcrotch — Thu, 20 Nov 2008 21:04:52 GMT

Whoa! I was scrolling through the new posts for the last day and Mandi hit a couple of hard ones right up the center, metaphorically speaking. The abuse thread and the "Who raised you" thread both sort of rocked me back because of my past. I know alot of us have some issue or another in our memories that lives in those topic areas, but seeing a direct question about something that you (meaning me) haven't dealt with in a while is like opening a faucet a little and having the whole thing blow open. I posted a little in the Who raised you thread and I'll post in the other at some point, but it's kinda hard. On a logical level, I know whats past is past, and I don't really have a problem with that, but there is alot of anger, sadness, and fear that was locked away with those memories. I have always thought that, at some point in my life, I would have to deal with this - stuff- again, but I don't know if now is the time.

Busted - when diaper wearing gets "heavy"...

quattrus — Thu, 20 Nov 2008 21:00:34 GMT

Every diaper wearer knows how, after being worn and used, diapers need to be properly disposed of, and 10 days in diapers 24/7 (see my previous blog entry) obviously produce a quite large amount of trash.

I live in the same house as my parents, and this means less privacy for my diaper-related activities. I could go living on my own, but since our house is quite big and I've always been in good relationships with my 'rents, diapers are really the only reason for which I could want more privacy than I currently have.

I obviously handle myself my bags of used diapers, but they end up in the same trashcans my parents use. Trash collection here works this way: we have different cans for different kinds of trash (organic, paper, plastic, unrecyclable), and in the one where diapers go there's a big trash sack in which you put the bags. Once the sack is full, my mum carries it out for the weekly trash collecting.

Normally, I hide my bags of used diapers between the other bags so that, unless you count them, you'll barely notice that someone dropped there an "extra bag". But this time I've been a little less cautious than in the past: I filled half of the trashcan with two big and extra heavy bags. :eek: They both were double-bagged and carefully sealed, so there was nothing blatantly obvious, apart from the fact that they were so heavy the sack broke up and my mum had to split the content of the broken sack in two different sacks. Worse thing was that, while she was doing that, my dad went out to smoke, saw her doing strange things with trash, and offered to help her, asking what was there of so heavy. My mum - who's nosy enough to know about my dl activities, although she never says a word about them - refused the help and finished what she was doing, covering me from my dad's curiosity.... Then..... she privately came to tell me what had just happened, and innocently suggested me to dispose of my things in smaller amounts at a time...... WHOOPS! :tongueout:

I feel so weird right now......

New CAR! Yea! and other stuff..

Princess_Mandy — Thu, 20 Nov 2008 05:30:29 GMT

I haven't been on much I stay really busy w/ school...Well any ways I got a new car this week since I totaled my 07 Honda civic 2 weeks ago sad...but it wasn't my fault since the truck driver hit me. I wasn't hurt other than some cuts and bruises and a concussion but it crushed in the entire right side of my car. Well as of yesterday I have a new grayish silverish 08 Honda accord EX Yea! and I love it....Well other than that schools going good. Im just sick of writing reports...Yuck...AND! I'm finally dating again after 2 years of dating no one. His name is Adam and hes really good to me. well that's all for now....Happy early turkey day everyone! Gobble Gobble!:D

O hay, new profile picture.

Neonite — Wed, 19 Nov 2008 08:41:26 GMT

If anyone knows who it is, you win. XD

Tired Otters are Productive Otters

C_C_C_Otter — Mon, 17 Nov 2008 07:12:45 GMT

I woke up feeling rather sleepy this morning, which is normal, but the tiredness lingered on all day. I did take advantage of it and did some pretty non intensive activities. Got the kitchen clean, read a good book, things like that.

Now it's past the time I usually go to bed and I am still tired... so why can't I sleep?

ZOMG! torntz pleeHAS? O_O;;

Customizer — Mon, 17 Nov 2008 01:15:49 GMT

It's Sunday. No buses, so I have to drive. So I get up today, get dressed and go downtown and try to find my classmate to get a camera. I called him before I left home, while I was downtown at a church and also when I left.

I suspect he is sick because he sounded awful in class, like bronchitis.

So I drive home and a woman in a Mini warns me that the back left tire is dangerously low. I pull over and spend 20 minutes changing it in an empty parking lot. I limp home and check the pressure of the spare: 11 psi.

I have dinner with family, then have to go pay 75 cents to activate a compressor at a gas station because all free air is locked up. Again, it is Sunday. Brought it up to 59 psi, max 60 rating. Darn sidewall hairline cracks and weak spots. God knows if the spare will lose air. Again, it is Saturday.

I still don't have the camera to go take pictures. Did I mention this was my mom's car? Now she gets to drive mine to her work tomorrow while her's is in the shop. Like always, I'll take the bus.

**sighs** I won't be going to my friend's house tonight to chill with the guys because I have Spanish reading to do.

I am tired. Did I mention I stayed up way too late doing a tiny paper too slowly until 3:00 a.m.? Nah, didn't think so.

I so want to hang out, but I won't. It's for my own good. Staying up late will only make me more tired the next day.

--Crusty McTrusty

Can I get a napkin, please?

Neonite — Sun, 16 Nov 2008 12:16:42 GMT

YouTube - Food Court Musical

Post here please

Valerye — Sun, 16 Nov 2008 04:03:48 GMT

Please. LOL

Abstinence: Day 8

Customizer — Sat, 15 Nov 2008 02:34:34 GMT

I'm tired. Mentally, I'm in a fog. This weekend will be a delightful time to write papers.

Did you not get the sarcasm?

I'm getting quite "full" down there in terms of prostate fluid.

Andy Setra: Don't take this personally, but I think your sex drive is overwhelming because you appear to me to be a lonely cat boy. If you were in my shoes, would you bust a nut and end your non-pleasured week of emptiness?

In other words, the weather conditions in my city are windy and cold. The declination of the sun makes each day darker, faster.

Digame.

"Avoiding" the holidays.

Fire2box — Fri, 14 Nov 2008 23:26:37 GMT

Well last night I made my choice of not going up to my mom's nor Oregon for the "holidays" this year. My main reasons are since I can't drive up there on my own I would have to force my dad to drive again for maybe the 20th+ time in this past decade or so. I know the drive sucks for him and there's mountain ranges no matter what way we go.

So there's always the worry about getting snowed in on some dumb pass or hour long delays and what not. Frankly it just overall sucks on the drive up there asides for the summer time.

But I got a whole list of reasons and I doubt anyone here would really care to hear them all.

So I called my mom and she expressed sorrow about me not coming up but she does seam to understand why I don't feel like it. I been to her town ton's of times in the past few years.

I also called up my older brother who wanted to see me on my 21st brithday which is now in 6 days. <_> So I only got to leave him a message like usual. It was pretty much him doing the planning this time but he only brought it up a few weeks ago. Plenty of time to get things in order I guess but not enough time to get me in the mood of wanting to go. Anyways I am hopping I dint hurt any of their feelings or the feelings of their respective family's.

24/7... I finally made it!

quattrus — Fri, 14 Nov 2008 21:48:27 GMT

For the first time ever, I've been wearing diapers non-stop for 7 days now, counting from last friday evening. I had tried other times to stay continuously diapered for some days in a row, but I never made it to a week, so technically, since "7" stands for "7 days", I had never been "24/7" before.

I have to thank Customizer for his idea (http://www.adisc.org/forum/blogs/cus...bstinence.html), which I've been following during this week and I plan on continuing. In fact, one of the main obstacles that made me desist from my diaper-wearing purposes in the past was that, after some days, when the excitement of being in diapers had gone, playing with myself was usually the beginning of the slope leading to the purge phase that made me stop wanting to be padded.

Last week, when I read about Customizer's idea, I thought that combining the two things could have been an interesting experiment. And in fact it was. The days in which I did this were also particularly suitable for the experience.

My job (I'm into video production manily for business meetings, conventions, etc...) usually involves being around a lot on different locations, in dynamic environments, moving technical equipment, dealing with big and demanding customers, and being all of the time with many other people. Not the ideal situations in which to be diapered. In the past days, instead, I only had to do some minor things in my own studio, so no big stuff to be around for. The ideal time to finally give a try to 24/7, with which I mean being in diapers (and using them) always, apart from changing/shower time, and a couple of times I let my privates air out a bit for an hour or two. No regular underwear at all, no use of the toilet (apart from one single time in the whole week... forgive me please.... :tongueout:)

The results? It doesn't really feel any different than being in diapers since just yesterday, and the slight awkwardness of being padded when among other people is still there, although I know how to dress accordingly to my "diaper status". The biggest achievement was to refrain from playing with myself and thus ruining the whole experience: the urges to relieve started building up on saturday, when I decided that I would have been diapered the following days, and reached their peak on tuesday morning. Then, amazingly, they sorta disappeared as if diapers had become something ordinary, and the week went on.

The little itching I had by the middle of the week was the only side-effect I experienced, due to the fact that I like to wear quite thick diapers and avoid changing until the diaper has reached its capacity (why waste unused absorbant material? :biggrin:). I usually wore Abriform X-pluses with a booster, particularly at night or when I didn't have to go around much, or something thinner like Tena Maxis or ID-Slips (a quite good french brand) if I knew I had to move more. Over the abriforms, as usual, I wore plastic pants and, over all, an onesie to keep everything in its place. This way, I've been going through 2/3 diapers a day.

What to do now? For sure I won't stop for the weekend, and on saturday night I'm going out with some friends of mine with whom I've already been out heavily padded multiple times (without them having a clue). But the agenda of the next week includes a lot of situations in which dealing with diapers could become an added hassle to the ones that already the job includes by default. Those boring office jobs look so appealing sometimes!

Oh, and, in fact, there was another side effect... I haven't decided yet if it's a positive or a negative one... that is, a little too much time spent on here! :-P

Love issues

Jet — Fri, 14 Nov 2008 19:52:06 GMT

Christ's sake...

I feel really depressed now. I can't and probably never will get this straightened out. My social life has gone suicidal and is just too mych for me to handle right now. Let me get thing straight, first things first.

My family isn't very approving of my political standpoint nor the stands I pull in public. I'm so frustrated with them. Why can't they let me live my dream? I wish to make the place just a little bit better for at least someone. But I guess every revolutionist has to meet problems sooner or later, but the fact that it is my parents this time just makes me sad. Why is everyone so against communism, when they don't even know what's it about?

So, enough with the political talk. I'll talk about love now. You see, I've been in love with a girl for almost two years now. The thing is, I think she has feelings for me too. At class she always
looks at my direction, when we make eyecontact one of us always looks away. The problem is that both of us is very shy and probably too much to dare to make the first move. Very annoying indeed. In a swedish blog I posted about a year ago I explained this thorougly, and if some of you want's to read it, then I can give it to you. But it is in Swedish, just so you know.
But not only that situation. I've been her friend for more than 3 years now. And I've started to think that she has feelings for me, she is hitting on me constantly. I love her, but not in that way. I don't wan't to hurt her feelings, but I don't really know how. Every thing I do has it's consequences. And I don't know what to do.

Why can't life be simple? I mean, why should this be so hard? Life hardly seems fair when such a beautiful thing as love gets so painful as it is know.

Goddamit! I don't know how much of this I can take. It feels like everytime I get a yard ahead of my feelings something always comes back and stabs my back.
I can't stand losing the girl I love, but neither do I wan't to lose my best friend.

I guess, some people are just meant to be hurt, and have their hearts crushed.

That sucks

Valerye — Fri, 14 Nov 2008 09:14:38 GMT

My dad got kicked off of the transplant list yesterday. HE has Hep C and was on the list for a liver.

Abstinence: Day 7

Customizer — Thu, 13 Nov 2008 22:17:03 GMT

Today was a busy day at the University. Many in-class assignments and quizzes kept me busy.

Three more days shouldn't be a problem.

The "garments" feel more special than ever, especially with last night's double-layered setup.

I feel well and am not horny enough to leak clear fluid yet.

The cold weather has kept me dormant and my thoughts have quieted down from yesterday.

If you youngins have a question, feel free to ask me.

To the members who are still following my plan: thank you and keep going. You're doing great.

Thank you for reading today's entry and have a nice night.

I love my friends

Valerye — Thu, 13 Nov 2008 02:18:56 GMT

One told me today he has a schoolgirl outfit fetish...... I;m so doing it.

im lazy

andrew-free — Wed, 12 Nov 2008 22:19:46 GMT

:dunno:

Abstinence: Day 6

Customizer — Wed, 12 Nov 2008 21:46:27 GMT

My digestion pattern has changed. It's dry. I am sometimes restless at night in bed.

It's a good thing I have more daytime energy now.

This abstinence thing is a healthy break. My brain is thanking me because masturbation to excess makes me tired.

My hormones are more balanced and I think the testosterone levels have increased slightly. I feel more aggressive than usual inside.

Have I thought about jerking off and ruining the abstinence period? Sure. But I always bring myself back to reality and forget touching myself.

Sometimes I think dirty thoughts.

For those of you who are following me on my 10-day regimen, be prepared to have it extended to 14 days if I am successful on the 10th day. After 14 days, prepare to have it extended to go up to 30 total days.

Abstinence: Day 5

Customizer — Tue, 11 Nov 2008 22:25:45 GMT

So far, so good. I had many random dreams last night and slept into the late morning.

My sexual urges are increasing, starting with sexual thoughts. They are fleeting and usually last a few moments.

I feel fine now after the morning grogginess. I haven't slept in so late in a year.

Today is my day off and I am reading and studying as usual.

To those who are still with me on my fast, thank you and keep going.

Have a nice day.

"Better of without a wife"

Titus — Tue, 11 Nov 2008 17:59:09 GMT

Lately, various people have told me I'm too much of an introvert, for my own good. Although I'm obliged to agree to the accusation, I don't see the means to mend this problem.

Anyhow, I thought I would start here:
I haven't written anything personal or told anyone about myself, for a long time now.

There are a couple of reasons for this; mainly that
- I'm worried about the quality of my input.
- And the fact that I don't want people to see how a boring bum I've become.

Nevertheless, herebye presenting:
"The thoughts that goes through the head of a regular John Doe on a regular day at work"

For the last six months I've been working fulltime at a warehouse. Although, the tasks that I handle for any given day are as boring as watching grass grow, they leave me time to think, to reflect. (Unfortunately, I would add.)
See, I now know the routines by heart, usually this gives me ample time to listen to music on my portable mp3 player.

Here I was, transporting crates and packages from point A to B, when the song "Better of without a wife" by Tom Waits comes on. I've never been much fan of letting my emotions show, though here I came very close to actual tears.
One of my worst fears in this life, has been that of commitment and intimacy. To grow so close to another, that life simply wouldn't be the same. I've always been an introvert. I generally prefer to be left alone.
Listening to this song however, it made me want things to be different. I don't want to go through life without ever experiencing love. I wonder if could have been different. I ponder upon wether or not this is a real fear. I contemplate my own nature.

There you have it, I've been as honest as I possibly can be. I didn't write this for counsel, and I certainly didn't write it for sympathy. I wrote this for myself. To see my thoughts all written up like this, exposed and honest; It makes me shiver a little bit on the inside. But perhaps it would do me some good. (Ha! I'm an selfish bastart, arn't I?)

I honestly don't expect you to comment on this. But I am hoping this blog entry is one of more to come. So if you know me, if you've talked to me, feel free to yell at me if I don't continue this during a reasonable period of time.

That is all. Thank you. G'day and good night.

I need help

Valerye — Tue, 11 Nov 2008 08:20:27 GMT

I need weird perverted sounding words people message me them D:

Moar Jelousy!

Corri_aka_Drew — Tue, 11 Nov 2008 07:00:50 GMT

http://d.furaffinity.net/art/corrifo...g_up_corri.jpg

brb

Point Blanch — Tue, 11 Nov 2008 00:06:52 GMT

january 5, 2009

Abstinence: Day 4

Customizer — Mon, 10 Nov 2008 23:09:46 GMT

Wow, what an incredible day. I felt totally confident taking an important Journalism media law test.

I was late to Spanish class because of some computer problems when I tried loading photos from a camera, but it worked for what it was worth.

I did well today and my sexual urges have remained quiet. This abstinence period should be no problem.

To members who have joined me on this fasting, I would like to extend a hand of thanks. To other members who read my blog, join in. You might learn something deeper about your inner self by keeping your focus on real life, rather than a sexual fantasy.

Penial

Valerye — Mon, 10 Nov 2008 06:43:55 GMT

that is all

Abstinence: Day 3

Customizer — Sun, 09 Nov 2008 17:26:53 GMT

So far, so good. I woke up an hour ago and have continued my studying from yesterday for a test tomorrow.

I have had few sexual urges. My body has been quiet.

I don't know if I will go to my friend's house tonight. I would like to not stay up late.

In other news, I got up this morning, put on a Bambino and wet it.

I feel well and am going to have breakfast.

I haven't gotten sick yet, and I believe this is because of my tremendous willpower. My signature phrase now is, "I will never give up!"

Thank you for reading.