purging

[Toddmdl]

I've gone through the binge and purge cycles since I started buying them when I was 9. Many times I've stopped for periods of time because of the shame and sometimes I've even thought, what am I doing? No matter what though I always went back and I know the feelings will never go away. If the beginning of your fetish was caused by something negative or a number of negative events happening then I recommend grieving that as I've been doing which has been both rough and enlightening. For me the fetish started when I was two. I liked wearing diapers and was finally toilet trained at five. The offense that occurred was obviously toilet training. I was traumatized by having my comfort blanket at the time which were diapers and pullups taken away. I repressed those thoughts at a young age because I figured I had to be a big boy then in my thinking. It just reappeared later and that's how my fetish started. But if you can let it go just like that then that's great if that's what you want. But if you are still carrying emotional baggage with the fetish, it's best to grieve and get past it.

[ion.blue]

I know many of us have a purge story to tell - and not success stories either. But I'm not going to tell mine. Instead, I wish you all the best in life and your relationship.