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For the next few days, both Will and Michelle found that they couldn’t bring themselves to talk to one another. Will was still feeling depressed about his desires and Michelle’s feelings towards them, and he was still adjusting to not being able to talk to her about it anymore. Michelle couldn’t stop thinking about how weird it had been to see Will act like a toilet-training two year old, and she also felt bad about how blunt she had been…so bad that she couldn’t bring herself to talk to him

After a few days of this, both of their friends started to notice. One day in the hall Josh came up to Will and said, “Ok, man, honestly, what’s up? You’ve been all depressed and down lately. And I know you haven’t been talking to Michelle. What the hell happened between you two?”

“I don’t know, man…things just haven’t been the same recently. I just feel weird talking to her.”

“Well dammit, get up off your ass and fix it,” said Josh. “You two have had problems before, but you’ve never been this depressed. You’ll only feel better once you fix the problem.”

“Yeah, I guess you’re right,” said Will. He knew Josh wasn’t completely correct since it was more than his issues with Michelle that were making him feel bad, but at the same time, he knew that if he didn’t talk to Michelle, he probably would never feel better. He decided to stop moping and make an effort to change directions.

Michelle had a similar conversation with Stephanie. Michelle told her how bad she felt for him, and Stephanie told her that she’d just feel the same until she started talking to him again.

So, after their last classes, Will and Michelle met up with each other. It was pretty awkward for both of them, but they knew they had to make an effort.

“Hey,” said Will. “How’ve you been?”

“Ok, I guess,” said Michelle. “You?”

“Yeah, I’ve been all right. Class sucks, like normal, but I always deal with it.”

Neither could figure out what to say next, so Michelle decided to try to make a joke to lighten things up.

“You know, it was pretty nasty when I had to clean that bucket you left over at my house.” She realized right after she said it that it was a bad idea, because Will looked even more uncomfortable.

After a few seconds, he said, “You know, this is stupid. Ever since a few days ago, it’s like we’re two different people. I’ve been moping around and being all down, and I’m sure it’s been awkward for you to talk with me. So let’s just both do what we said; let’s completely forget about everything that happened and just pretend it never happened. Ok?”

“Yeah, you’re right,” said Michelle. “I’ve been feeling bad for how I came across earlier, so if I just forget about it, then I’ll feel better talking to you. Let’s just get our relationship back to normal.”

“Exactly. So, on that note, why don’t we go to Starbucks and talk things over?”

“Sounds great,” Michelle said with a smile. She gave him a quick kiss and the two of them left.

They used the time to catch up on everything that had been happening in their lives, and they were both feeling better. Now that Will had had a few days to get over his feelings, he had warmed up to the idea of forgetting about everything. By the end of their brief date, they both had little trouble putting everything behind them.

Will was happy that his life had gotten back to normal, and over the next few weeks he was almost able to convince himself that he had never told Michelle anything. He went back to keeping his desires strictly personal.

Still, just like before he had ever told Michelle about everything, he still felt very weird about his desires. He couldn’t help but feel that he was separated from everyone he knew, and sometimes it would eat away at him.

He went through a brief period where he tried to purge his mind of his crazy desires, believing he could push it out of his system. He stopped looking at internet sites and stopped posting messages on the boards where he used to. He always used his diapers and didn’t think anything of it.

For a little while, it seemed to be working, and he was able to go about his normal life and not feel sorry for himself. But in the back of his mind his desires were still there, and every now and then the sound of water running would remind him of a toilet flushing, or he would think about wiping himself when an android did it for him.

He soon found himself back on the internet looking at his sites, and he felt much more liberated when he wasn’t trying to make himself stop thinking about toilets. It was like some kind of addiction…he felt much better when he let himself indulge in his desires, but at the same time, he couldn’t help but wish that he didn’t need them to make him feel that way.

He eventually reached a happy medium that he could live with. He managed to push his desires into one part of his life and separate them from his daily life. However, he also allowed himself to indulge in his feelings in limited periods of time.

This way, he still got the joys of thinking about toilets, but he was able to convince himself during most parts of the day that he was “normal” and didn’t even have them. For the most part, this scheme worked very well. But it was when these two parts of his life collided that he felt horrible for even having these desires at all, and wished that he truly could be normal.

Still, these times only occurred occasionally, and he felt the bad feelings he got were a small price to pay for an overall happy balance.

It wasn’t until things started to go wrong between him and Michelle that this plan was thrown way out of balance.



Like just about any relationship, Will and Michelle’s had never been perfect. They would get into fights about a variety of issues, and sometimes go for periods without talking to each other. Sometimes Will was at fault, sometimes Michelle was, and sometimes they both were. However, eventually someone would admit they were wrong, they would both decide the matter they were fighting over wasn’t really important, and they ended up making up again. But no matter how many times they made up, eventually something else would come up, and more drama would ensue.

Now, once again, the happiness between the two would be disrupted. This time around, the issue was Will’s three best friends: Josh, Taylor and Todd. Will was still very close to all of them, and they always made his life better when things got tough.

Michelle had known them for just about as long as Will had, but she never spent nearly as much time with them as Will did. In fact, she hardly ever even had contact with them unless they were with Will. She basically didn’t get along with any of them, and to make things worse, Will acted very differently around them than he did when she was with him alone.

This hadn’t been a problem to her before, but now it seemed like he was spending more and more time with them, and she barely got to see Will by herself. She constantly wanted to see him, so she forced herself to tolerate being around all four of them together. As bossy as she was, she had a lot more trouble getting him away from them, because Will always seemed irritated by her when she pulled him away. And now, as the amount of time she had to spend with them grew, so did her frustrations with them and Will’s behavior around them.

She didn’t really have a problem with either Todd or Taylor, she just didn’t click with them. Todd tended to be cocky about how smart he was, and his main interests were anime and video games, two things that Michelle found incredibly boring. So whenever the conversation drifted towards them, she was left out and couldn’t help but blame Todd because he was almost always the one who brought it up.

Taylor just struck Michelle as weird. He was always reading, and he always seemed to be looking for the true meaning of life and things like that…he was so deep about everything. Sure, he was really nice, and he always tried to act cool when he was around Will and the other two, but for some reason she felt uncomfortable around him.

But her feelings towards these two were just minor irritations. It was Josh who she really started to dislike, almost to the point where it was hatred. He never seem to shut up, and he was always cussing or making rude comments. He tended to be chauvinistic and would say things that offended her and made her feel like he thought that girls were only good for sexual pleasure. He would tell jokes that disgusted her, but always seemed to be funny to Will and his friends. And probably worst of all, he would always make little diaper jokes or always talk about gross things like that.

After a while it got to the point that she couldn’t take it anymore, especially because Will seemed to be spending a lot of time with Josh in particular, and Will even started to act like Josh more and more, sometimes in little ways when she was with him alone.

Finally, one day while she was over at Will’s house, she brought up the topic.

“Will, honestly, I’m really starting to get sick of your friends. It seems like every time I see you you’re with them, and I think they’re starting to rub off on you.”

“What are you talking about? What the hell’s wrong with my friends?”

“Will, come on, open your eyes. Todd’s a computer geek, Taylor’s a wannabe hippie, and Josh…he’s just a ****ing asshole.”

“Hey! Don’t ****in’ talk about my friends like that! They’re like brothers to me, and I’m closer to them than anyone.”

“Well, that’s the problem. Maybe you shouldn’t be hanging around them as much…they having an influence on you, and...”

“Don’t ****in’ judge my friends! And who the hell are you to tell me who I should hang out with. At least my friends don’t boss me around like you and try to control my life.”

“Ok, fine, hang out with Todd and Taylor all you want. But Josh is a stupid bastard, and I’m sick of dealing with him!”

“Well, you can either deal with it or stop spending time around me, because he’s my bud and I’m not cutting him off just because you can’t handle a little humor every now and then.”

“You know what? Maybe I SHOULD stop being around you all the time. And I’ll start right now…I’m leaving. Because you know…Josh really is starting to rub off on you…you’re almost as big of an asshole as he is!”

As Michelle stormed out the room, Will yelled, “Good! You can just get the **** outta my house.”

That night both of them went to sleep angry. Will couldn’t get over how uptight Michelle was being about him just chilling with his friends just like he always had…it wasn’t like he hadn’t spent a lot of time with them for years. Michelle couldn’t see why Will was so stubborn and why he kept putting his friends over her. But she still really believed that him spending so much time with Josh was the major problem, so most of her anger was actually aimed at Josh…so much so that she decided she would take it up with him the next day.

Early that morning, before their first class, Michelle saw Josh at his locker. Although she had originally planned on confronting him with a cool head, all of that went out the window as soon as she saw his face. All of her frustrations exploded in her as she walked up to talk to him. And, in retrospect, she realized that she had been nothing short of a complete bitch.

As she confronted him, she said firmly, “Listen up, asshole. I’m sick of you, and I’m tired of you…”

Josh was caught off guard, but he soon got on track and said, “Whoa whoa whoa…calm down baby. You sound like you just shitted your diaper, honestly…chill out.”

“Comments like that are exactly what I’m talking about!” she said, not caring to keep her voice down. “You’re just a pig, and you’re lucky that I don’t beat your ass right now!”

“Oh, is that so? Well, you better get a reality check, honey, because in case you haven’t been noticing, Will’s starting to see the light and he’s not letting your ass boss him around anymore.”

“Oh, so is that why Will has been spending so much time around you? So you can convince him that I’m too bossy and trying to control him…”

By this time the two of them were starting to cause a small hallway scene, but not quite big enough to draw a teacher’s attention to see what was going on. It was also right around this time that Will walked down the hall and found out what the two were fighting about, and like Michelle, as Will completely lost his cool when he saw her.

“Oh,” he said to her as he walked up. “So it’s not good enough for you to tell me what the **** to do? Now, you have to mess around in my friends’ lives? Honestly, what’s your problem?”

“Maybe if you were so damn hardheaded you’d realize that I’m just trying to keep you from turning into a complete ass just like your stupid ‘buddy’ here!”

“Well, if you care so damn much, why don’t you just let me be who I am, and stop being so damn annoying, bitch!”

As soon as he said this, he knew he had probably gone too far. He heard people in the crowd let out a chorus of “ooh’s” and “aw naw he didn’t!” ‘s. It was also enough to draw a teacher’s attention, who only managed to break up the scene without punishing anybody.

Michelle was beside herself. Anger boiled inside her for the rest of the day, and then she suddenly figured out exactly what she was going to do to get him back…

During their lunch period, Will was walking with Josh, Taylor and Todd in the school courtyard, where there was a decent amount of open space, a large number of students on lunch break, and virtually no teachers. So, it was the perfect opportunity for Michelle to drop her bomb.

“Hey Will, you ****ing asshole!” she yelled as he walked by. “So you think I’m a bitch, huh? Well at least I’m not a sick freak like you. That’s right, ‘cause guess what? Right here, right now, I’m gonna tell everyone your dirty little secret!”

A number of people let out small gasps of surprise or at least quieted down. They always looked forward to someone airing someone else’s dirty laundry…it was always entertaining if nothing else.

Josh, Todd and Taylor just looked from Michelle back to Will with puzzled looks on their faces. Will himself was wearing a look of shock.

“Oh yeah,” Michelle continued. “Guess what everybody? This weird ass freak has this really weird thing for…TOILETS! That’s right! He was telling me all about it the other day. He was like ‘Oh Michelle, I know it’s weird, but I just don’t like my diapers! Guess what, I want to learn how to hold in my pee. And I wish so badly I had a toilet so I could piss in it, wipe my OWN self, and then flush it! Wouldn’t that be cool? And I have a bunch of internet friends who all think this is just as cool as I do!’ So how do you like that, ‘Willy’? Your little secret is out now!”

As the crowd listened, they couldn’t help but giggle at this outrageous news. For a few seconds after Michelle finished talking, Josh, Todd, and Taylor just looked at Will with surprised looks. Will’s own face was merely blank. He waited for a few seconds, and then…

He just burst out laughing. He just couldn’t seem to stop. He grabbed his sides laughing so hard. Michelle just looked at him funny as he said between laughs

“Wow…mmmph…I mean…<ha ha>…honestly…is that the best you can come up with? That’s pathetic!”

Josh, Todd and Taylor let out a few nervous laughs, but then started laughing right along with Will. The crowd’s response was similar.

“What?” Michelle asked.

“I mean,” said Will. “Honestly, that’s just pathetic. I thought you’d at least tell everyone that my penis is tiny, or something like that. Or you might have said I only last two minutes in bed. Or maybe that I still suck my thumb just like I did when I was three years old, or something ‘embarrassing’ like that. But come on…toilets? What kind of cracked out shit is that?”

The crowd laughed a little harder as Michelle looked at Will in surprise and while he continued.

“I mean, really…it’s not even a good lie. If you’re gonna try to make up something to embarrass me, come up with something believable. What, are you gonna tell everyone that I think all day how much I wish I didn’t have to wear diapers? Or that I somehow magically trained myself to hold in my piss?”

Will let out a howl of laughter between each line, as did his friends and the crowd of people.

“Or maybe I went and got a bucket and decided ‘Hey…why don’t I ****ing take a shit in this thing’? Or maybe I want you to be potty train me just like I was two?” He put on his mock little kid voice and said, “Mommy, mommy, I’m a big boy now, I went pee pee in the potty!’ Honestly, woman, it’s just ridiculous I knew you’d come up with some kind of lie, but I thought you were smarter than this. Whatever, I’m outta here.”

As Will and his friends walked to their classes laughing, the crowd’s laughter settled and they began to chat about what happened as well as other various things. Michelle, on the other hand, stormed off filled with anger.

Will actually felt surprisingly calm during his next two classes, and he didn’t really think about what had just happened. However, as he walked out of his final class, he caught up with Josh, and found out that other people were still talking about it.

“So what have people been saying?” asked Will.

“Aw, man, it seems like everyone’s talking about it. And I’m not surprised…it was ****ing hilarious. And it was quite a scene.”

“No one actually believes what she said, do they?” asked Will with a hint of nervousness in his voice.

“Aw, no way man. I mean, who would? ****in’ toilets…now that’s some crazy bullshit. It did seem pretty off the wall, so I don’t know how she came up with it.” He then looked at Will a little funny. “Unless…I mean…it wasn’t related to anything you told her or anything…I mean, not that I think you want to use ****in’ toilets or anything…but…it did seem a little strange. There wasn’t any truth to it at all, was there?”

Almost immediately (but not too quickly, Will made sure) Will smiled relaxingly and responded with, “Nah, man, of course not. ****in’ toilets indeed…she sure was pissed.”

Josh just smiled and said, “Yeah, she sure was. Well, I hope you two can figure out what to do next. I’m not pissed at her or anything…but I do think she’s a bit too bossy a lot of times. Anyway, man, I’m gonna be going. So ‘til next time, keep your diaper dry, bro.”

Will smiled and said, “Same to ya, man.”

As Josh walked away, Will let out a sigh of relief. He was extremely happy that no one had believed Michelle. He had always prepared for something like this to happen, especially after he had told her. He had trusted her, but he knew that there was always a possibility that someone may have looked online and found out his secret, or that maybe Michelle would tell somebody. So, he had decided that he’d use the weirdness of his desire to his advantage, and just like he had predicted, it came off as something completely crazy that nobody would believe (especially since he knew Michelle was just trying to get him back).

He still didn’t know what to do about the whole Michelle thing. He had cooled down and wasn’t as pissed at her as he had been, but at the same time, he was very hurt by the fact that she had betrayed his trust. This was his most personal issue, and she had exploited him by telling an actual crowd of people. It was way too much to think about at the moment, and he just felt like going home.


Once he got home, he was so worn out that he went right to sleep. He woke up around dinner time, and after his family ate, he got a phone call.

It was none other than Michelle. Before he could say anything, she started to softly cry and said, “Will, honestly, I am so sorry. Honestly, I mean it. I think that’s the worst thing I have ever done. I completely betrayed your trust, and if you hadn’t been so smart, it could have ruined your reputation permanently. And I know also that those three guys are your friends. Today made me realize how close you are to them, and even though I may not like them, I’m not your mother and I can’t control who you hang out with. And not only that, but I do know how bossy I can be. I’m honestly trying to work on it, but that’s jus the way I am. So, from the bottom of my heart, I just want to ask your forgiveness.”

Will was very taken aback. This was the last thing that he had expected from her. He asked for a minute to process everything she had said. He then let out a deep sigh and began to speak.

“You know, Michelle, today has made me think about stuff too. Yes, I will forgive you for what you did…if I don’t, it will only make me more bitter towards you. But I can’t forget it. You completely betrayed me by exposing my most personal secret. And over what? Some petty bullshit that we were fighting over. So Michelle, really, I think it’s best that we break up. It’s not just the toilets…it’s that I just don’t feel we really fit together. I have to do my thing, and I’m too young to have to deal with you always worrying about me and trying to boss me into what you think is best for me. Really, I think that it’s best.”

Michelle was silent for a few more seconds apart from some soft sobs. But after that period of time, she said, “Well, it doesn’t make me happy, but you know, I think you’re right. It’s just not working. I want to stay together, but I can’t always get my way. But can we still be friends at least?”

Will paused, and then said, “You know, I think that’d be best. You’re still a great girl, Michelle, I just don’t think you’re who I need for a girlfriend. But as a friend, I think you’re great.”

Upon hearing this, Michelle was able to stop crying, and said, “Ok. Well, that’s that. Will, you’re one of the best guys I’ve ever met, and even if it’s just as a friend, I do love you. Well, I guess until next time, don’t go pissing in any buckets not, y’hear?”

Will let out a soft laugh and said, “I’ll keep that in mind. See ya.”

Will softly hung up the phone, let out another sigh, and plopped down on the living room couch.

About a million thoughts were racing around in his head. He still couldn’t believe everything that had happened that day. But he couldn’t help but feel like it all was wrapped around his crazy toilet desire. He couldn’t get over why he couldn’t just be like everyone else.

He tried to get his mind off of it, but the more he tried, the more he thought about it. He thought about how horrible it would have been had he been found out. He heard his own laughter in his head and how he had made a complete mockery of his own desire, He heard Michelle calling him a sick freak, and he imagined what the crowd’s laughter would have been like had they realized she was telling the truth. He imagined how they would shun him and treat him like he was a freak, and he heard Josh’s voice saying how weird it would have been Will really did like toilets.

All of these thoughts kept circling around and around in his head, and once again he truly felt horrible about his desire. He couldn’t help but feel alienated from everyone. He once again found himself in tears, and he buried his face in his arms, asking himself over and over again why he had to be this way, and why for once in his life he couldn’t just be normal.

Someone must have heard him crying, because at that moment he heard someone’s footsteps entering the room. As he tried to keep his tears in, he looked up to see who it was, and he found out it was none other than Mikey.

“Whatsa matta Willy?” Mikey asked innocently, but with a look of genuine concern. “Mommy said big boys don’t cry, so why are you crying?”

Will just looked at him and said, “Well, Mikey, sometimes everybody cries. About really important stuff.”

“Like what? Why are you sad?”

“Well, Mikey, I guess I’ll just say that I’m not feeling too good about myself right now.”

To Will’s surprise, Mikey just smiled and said, “Aw, that’s nuthin’! It’s stupid to feel bad about yourself! Our teacher was talking about that today. She said that all of us are different, and that we should be happy about us. She said that if we were all the same, it would be boring. She said that being different is what makes everyone of us special, and we should be happy if we’re more different than everybody. So cheer up, Willy! I think you’re the bestest person in the world!”

With that, Mikey excitedly gave Will a hug and then his attention shifted somewhere else and he scampered out of the room.

But Will found himself getting the biggest surprise of the entire day. He couldn’t exactly figure out why, but he had just gotten an epiphany from the most unlikely of places: little Mikey. The more he thought about it, the more he realized that as cheesy as it sounded, Mikey was right. For just about his entire life, he had been looking at his toilet desire as a bad thing. He had always wanted nothing else than to just be normal, to just be like everyone else. But now that he thought about it, he wondered why he would want that. Yes, his toilet desire was really really weird. But it was a part of who he was, and it was something that he knew made him unique and well…special.

Will realized that even though he probably would never tell anyone else about his toilet desire, it still didn’t make him any less of a person than anyone else. He had a wonderful family, a great group of friends, and a cute little brother that looked up to him like he was famous. If they could all be happy with who he was, then he could be happy with who he was, toilet desire and all. He didn’t know exactly what would happen with his friends, with Michelle, or with anyone else, but he did know that even in this crazy diaper filled world, there was always a special place for toilet loving crazy people like him, and he vowed that from this day forward, he would never forget that.


The End.