I would have to agree with Ayanna on this one, and let me explain. I'm 49 now, and have been into diapers since I was a small child, initially around 5 or 6, and then even more at 11 or 12. I kept it a secret all of my life, even from my wife, until we had been married for 15 years. I tried to bring up the subject a few times, but never got a very warm reception to it, so I didn't press it. When I finally just came out and told her, she was really hurt, first because I guess she thought I didn't trust her, but she also didn't trust me after that. It's been a really rocky road since then, and it almost caused a divorce at one point. I never did it in front of her, ever, and never asked her to participate either. It was simply that she just couldn't forget that I hadn't told her from the start. When I found out about this on the internet, (I had no idea until 3 or 4 years ago that there was any such thing as an AB/DL), I was on for hours and hours, at night and all day. She found out about that, and then the feces really contacted the rotary oscillator! The only thing that really saved my marriage was my health problems. I've now had 3 major back surgeries, and 5 other minor surgeries for other things, and I'm totally incontinent now. I HAVE to wear diapers, and she's very understanding of that. I've been in diapers now 5 years, and been married for 21. But I wish I had told her when we were dating. Because if I had known she would never accept it, I would have found someone that would.
You HAVE to tell her, no way out of it. You will never be happy if you don't. If she doesn't accept it, then move on. This is something that will never go away, I know, I've tried to lose it before as well. I've done the binge/purge thing many, many times, and thrown away thousands of dollars worth of stuff over the years. It's not worth it. TELL HER!!!!
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