I always call it humiliation rather than embarrassment. Just quickly quoting from wikipedia:
"Embarrassment is an emotional state experienced upon having a socially or professionally unacceptable act or condition witnessed by or revealed to others."
"Humiliation (also called stultification) is the abasement of pride; mortification. The state of being humbled or reduced to lowliness or submission. It is thus the process of being made humble. It can be brought about through bullying, intimidation, physical or mental mistreatment or trickery and embarrassment."
To me, humiliation feels a lot different to embarrassment, and certainly isn't 'embarrassment to a larger degree' as some people seem to say it is.
I tend to think that humiliation involves a humiliator...
Tripping over one's shoelaces in public, or running for a bus and missing it, or failing to catch a ball from a gentle throw (etc etc...) are all embarrassing, but from none of those would I gain any sort of (even a very remote) sexual thrill. In fact it seems absurd to think of that. Whereas having someone do something to me to intentionally bring me down would probably be very sexually thrilling.
To answer your question, humiliation is the major part of my AB fantasies. I'd go as far as saying that I'm not so much an AB/DL etc. as I am a person who is into humiliation, and diapers and baby stuff just so happens to be one of the most humiliating things I can think of. (This is also the root of my being a sissy).
How does it play into my fantasies? Well they are all geared towards it basically...
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