Depression can really suck. I also understand how you can feel the way you do when a relationship ends. Relationships are not suppose to be based off of one things though.. that usually does not work.
I know I am probably going to counter-attack how you feel (I am sorry... but I really do know what you feel like). So here it goes:
There are going to be relationships that fail hardcore, go down nasty. Then there will be other relationships that will go down soft and not as bad. But in all.... some relationships just need to end.
I know that you feel like the only thing that is left for you know is something that brings you back to what makes you feel comfortable. Diapers is what you you like so you want something that is just as great as them. But life does not work like that. A relationship can't be based off of just one things. Especially a thing of "fetish". Reason I quoted that word is I know it might not be like that to you or to others on this site... it is the only word I can think of for it though.
So the best thing you can do is go out and find someone that you like and someone who likes you. Then start a relationship all over again and let it grow. After time you will learn to trust them and they will learn to trust you. That is when you tell them your "secrets." If they truely love you they will except you for who you are... if they don't except you...well SCREW THEM!!!
In the end though if you want a "real" relationship you going to have to base it off of them as an individual and not just one thing that they want and have in common with you. (I am not saying that it is not possible that it would work.. but very unlikely.)
Find someone to grow with and when you think they love you and you can trust them... tell them. They may not want to participate but they will except you for who you are. That is the way a relationship should be.
I hope you the best and i do hope you find someone out there for you... and I hope that person will be your "mommy" as well. If you want more advice feel free to ask. This place is swarming with good advice.
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