I think our personalities are affected by our AB/DLism rather than it changing our personalities. Long before the internet and my having a name for what I am, I can look back and remember the regressive things I did innocently, and were a natural part of my personality. I always liked building models and playing with certain toys. In college I re-discovered Winnie the Pooh, so much that when I got married, I introduced my wife to Pooh, and we would read the stories to each other. At the time I had no idea that this was a part of the regressive side to my personality. We even named our first child Christopher Robert. I still like comics and this Christmas I'm getting slot cars.
If suddenly I was not an AB, I really don't think it would change the outward part of my personality at all, or how I function in the world, either with my friends or with strangers, because it isn't something I outwardly show. Inside, I wouldn't want to lose the kid part of me. Nor would I want to lose how I see other kids. Working in a Junior High School, I get to see a few students who are pretty infantile in the way they act, and I really love them for it. We have a good repore. I just see the world differently than most, and I'm glad for it.
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