[Abby_Cullen]

Chapter 5


"Now" Angela said, looking me in the eye."I know you probably don't want to do this, but we have to. We have to go pick out a casket for your father and identify his body at the morg."


I looked at her with what I can imagine are the saddest eyes anyone has ever seen. I didn't want to go see my father dead, or pick out a casket where he would be buried, it would only make the suititation permenant.


"Ok" I said quietly.


"We will go pick out the casket first"


We pulled up to a small funeral home and went inside. I was kind of out of it so Angela told the lady at the desk what we were looking for. We were led into a small room containing about 6 caskets. I picked one with a white interior and Mahogony wood. After we were done looking Angela talked to the lady again and had me sign a couple of papers. We went back to the car and headed to a big place, what I assumed was the morg. We walked in and while we were being lead to wherever my dad was I still had a little hope in me.


"Maybe he isn't dead, maybe they have the wrong person and he is just at work right now"

"Oh Sweetie, I wish he was" Angela looked at me like she could cry, although I didn't really understand why.


"Here we are, I will leave you two alone" The man said.


We walked to a steel table with a white lumpy sheet on it. Angela lifted up one corner and I couldn't believe my eyes, it was my father, my father! I started crying really loud, feeling terrible. I ran to Angela and buried my face in her and continued to sob while she held me.


"sssh, it's ok. It will be alright"


"No it won't" I pulled away from her. "I hate this, I hate not having my house, my father, I hate everything right now"


"It will get better I promise" Angela said in a reassuring voice.


I started sobbing really loudly and Oh My God, did I do what I think I did? I pulled away again and ran; I ran like there was no tomorrow. All I saw was flying colours, when I got to the car I stopped there. I did do it, I peed in my pants again, without even knowing it. I hated everything that was happening right now, I was disgusted with myself. I was still crying a few minutes later when Angela came out of the building, jogging to get to me.


"What happened sweetie, are you okay, why did you run like that?"


"I peed in my pants again! And I don't know why!"


"It's okay, we can go home and change, sssh, don't cry sweet heart, you can go lay down when we get home" She whispered softly into my ear as she was rubbing my back and hair.


We got in and I silently cried all the way to her house. We pulled into a great big house, it was a little old, probably 15 years, but it was really big! It looked like a mansion to me, with a balcony and everything. When I was getting out Angela told me to wait a minute so I sat there with the car door open. She went into the back seat and grabbed the powder, wipes and a goodnight and gave them to me.


"Go in and change, then you can take a nap, you look exausted"


"Thank-you" Was all that could escape my mouth.


We walked through a gate and into the back yard, and wow! Was it amazing!! There was a huge inground pool with a shed, garden, trampoline, fire pit with seats around it and a huge deck with a barbecue and a patio set. There was also a balcony in the back too. Angela opened the back door and led me through the kitchen.


"You can change in that bathroom"


I took the stuff into a bathroom that looked like a closet because the door was wood and slided just like a closet door, although it was big inside. I changed and threw the old goodnight into the trash, washed my hands and left the powder and wipes on the counter.


"I'm all done Angela"


"Okay sweetie come on" Just when she was about to turn around I hugged her, I think it took her by suprise.


"Thank you for taking care of me today, I really Appreciate it."


"I would help you any day my Lacey"


She picked me up and settled me right in front of her holding my bum with both hands. She grabbed the bottle of gatorade that she had sitting on the fire place mantel and managed to carry that and me up the stairs and into a HUGE room that was red and gold. She placed the gatorade down and then on the huge fluffy bed that was covered in a red and gold royal patterned duvet. She rolled the duvet down to the foot of the bed and covered me with a red throw.


"There you go, sleep well, get rested."


"Okay, thanks"


She smiled and walked out of the room.


I looked around, there was a walk in closet that was open, sliding glass doors that led to the back-yard balcony and 2 dressers, with a night stand on each side, a lamp on each then in one of the corners there was a stand up lamp, two gold coloured chairs (the couch kind, like a loveseat, but for one person) with a red throw on one, I was using the other with a table in front of them. I was looking out into the back yard while I drifted into sleep.